Issue 13 – March 1997


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Issue 13 – March 1997

The purpose of this newsletter is to help stop secret societies from abusing others and to help those who have allegedly been abused by the Masons and other secret societies.

This newsletter is not a substitute for other ways of recovery from ritual abuse. Readers should use caution while reading this newsletter. If necessary, make sure other support systems are available during and after reading this newsletter.

Important :
Resources mentioned in this newsletter are for educational value only. Reading the books cited may or may not help your recovery process, so use caution when reading any book mentioned in this newsletter. Some may have a religious or other agenda that may be separate from your own recovery process. Others may have valuable information on the Masons and other organizations, but have triggers or be somewhat sympathetic to that organization. Resources listed, quoted and individual articles, etc. and their writers do not necessarily support all or any of the views mentioned in this newsletter. Also, the views, facts and opinions mentioned in this newsletter are solely the opinions of the authors and are not necessarily the opinion of this newsletter or its editor.

“The Greatest Revenge is to Heal,
then Turn Around and Help Someone Else.”
– The Grapevine

“The Greatest Revenge is to Stop
Abusers from Making Victims”

(Copyright 1998 – All rights reserved. No reproduction of any material without written permission from the editor and individual authors.)

Believe the Children presents “Dreamweavers: Child Abuse and Victim Advocacy” with co-sponsors: E.C.L.I.P.S.E., Incest Survivors Resource Network International, Mungadze Association, P.C., S.M.A.R.T., Survivorship, The Healing Woman Foundation, VOICES in Action, Inc. Sponsors are: B.T.C., I.C.C.R.T, M.A.S.A, S.A.V.E. Whitfield will be the keynote speaker. Dates are: April 11-13, 1997, at the Wyndham Hotel, Northwest Chicago, 400 Park Blvd, Itasca, IL. For info call: 630-515-5432, or write BTC, P O Box 797, Cary, IL 60013.

S.M.A.R.T. encourages its subscribers to attend this conference and encourage its participants to discuss the alleged connections between secret societies (especially those related to the Masons and other large well known groups) and ritual abuse. S.M.A.R.T. will have a table at the conference.

Damage Control and Mind Control

After talking on the phone or the computer with several survivors of ritual abuse, I realized that the dynamics of fighting against secret societies’ alleged involvement in ritual abuse was much larger than I previously thought. One survivor kept mentioning the words “damage control”, to describe those survivors or co-survivors or pro-survivors that may appear to be on the side of fighting ritual abuse, but may either be co-opted through mind control or what seems to be more socially appropriate to believe. These “damage control” people may stop short of wanting to show or discuss the connections between secret societies and ritual abuse. This could manifest itself in those refusing to run press releases, articles or presentations at conferences that will help prove and expose the alleged connections between secret societies and ritual abuse. I recently saw the adage, “it is better to be popular than right”, I prefer, “it is better to be right, than popular.”

There could be a variety of reasons for some survivor publications and conferences to not want a public discussion of the alleged connections between secret societies and ritual abuse. One may be denial. Members of those publications or associations may not have dealt with their own ritual abuse backgrounds or secret society connections. This is in some ways similar to those denying the existence of child abuse, especially for those that have not dealt yet with their own past traumas and are unable to hear these topics.

Another may be cult infiltration. A person may have altars that are pro-survivor and other altars that are still pro-cult. They may be taking instructions from the cult on who is safe enough to be published or allowed to speak. To not lose credibility, it may be necessary at times to allow those with potentially damaging information to be allowed to speak. As S.M.A.R.T. and the anti- ritual abuse – secret societies movement gets larger and stronger, it may at times be more and more necessary for some organizations to allow a discourse on these topics.

Another may be fear. Some secret societies may be very large and very dangerous. They have allegedly been known to hurt and/or kill those that speak out against them. So certain people in the survivors’ movement may fear discussing certain topics. Another may the fear of possible legal ramifications. However, it may be more dangerous to be silent than to speak out.

Some organizations and publications may fear a loss of believability or credibility if they start discussing possible secret societies’ connections to ritual abuse. They may need external financial support or want a certain amount of social acceptance from the community, be it academic, political or social.

I believe that the best way to deal with those having trouble allowing discussions of ritual abuse and secret societies at their conferences and in their publications is to develop a strong movement. This includes writing those publications asking to have more works published about this topic and asking certain organizations to allow speakers to discuss the connections between secret societies and ritual abuse at their conferences and in their newsletters. Individuals need to speak out about this topic in appropriate places and ways. The fight against alleged ritual abuse by secret societies is stronger than it has ever been. We can no longer be easily discredited or attacked as in the past. Helping professionals are increasingly considering diagnosis of D.I.D. and believing their origins. Even though there is a media backlash of sorts against repressed memory and ritual abuse, the exposure already necessary to develop the credibility of the existence of alleged ritual abuse by secret societies is present.

Now, it is up to all of us to work on as many fronts as we possibly can to stop ritual abuse. For some, this may mean healing internally and not going back to the cult. For others, this may mean also include writing articles about ritual abuse or speaking out at survivor conferences or writing letters to the editor when a biased story against the existence of repressed memories or ritual abuse is in the newspaper or on radio or TV. Others may want to write and/or call survivor organizations and publications to encourage them to discuss and publish more materials about alleged ritual abuse by secret societies.

We must do all we can to stop ritual abuse. Every time one person stands up and speaks out, a child’s life may be saved. A survivor may hear your story and begin or be strengthened on the path of their own recovery. A “neutral” person may suddenly realize that we are right and that ritual abuse does exist and that certain secret societies may promote this abuse. Plus, speaking out in an appropriate manner when one is ready can be one of the most healing and empowering things one can do. The fear of speaking out diminishes, and the lies the cult taught us are truly seen as lies. There are people that will believe us and listen to us. We are not crazy, our responses to what was done to us were and are totally normal. We can and will heal. We can be successful outside the cult.

Those interested in helping S.M.A.R.T. fight ritual abuse in general, and its connections to secret societies should contact S.M.A.R.T. either via computer or US Mail. We are always looking for new articles to publish and help presenting information at conferences. We are also always looking for new ideas in this battle. We can and will win.

The following article was sent to S.M.A.R.T. by a current subscriber. The letter was edited by S.M.A.R.T. to protect the survivor and S.M.A.R.T. An address to write the author will follow. Please use caution while reading, it may be triggering. There are description of alleged rituals.

Dear S.M.A.R.T. 1/97

I am an alleged survivor of Masonic/Rosicrucian/German-Aryan/Satanic ritual abuse; quite possibly, they may have even been the Illuminati. My father was allegedly a secret member of the Masonic Temple and Rosicrucians. Most members were allegedly of German heritage, using German language/terms during the rituals, and espousing Aryan looks and supremacy. Leaders had to be referred to as “Master”, “Kaiser”, Kaiserin”, the “Koa” and “templar Kadosh”. As of yet, I cannot remember what they called themselves; I refer to them as “die Familie” (“the family” in German).

In 1963, my father allegedly presented his family to dignitaries at the Rosicrucian Fellowship, The men and women were separated into adjoining halls; the women apparently being “lower” than the men within the ranks of this society. Observing this, my mother rebelled against my father’s plan for our family, demanded to leave, and refused to participate in the “society”. From this point on, my mother and we children were allegedly forced to participate in cult activities. The methods of choice to insure our presence for rituals, etc…allegedly included: being chloroformed or drugged and taken to meetings, torture and/or extreme sexual abuse to create dissociated states and identities, sleep deprivation, hypnosis, and other forms of mind control.

The Nazi thought process was idealized by the cult; however, there was a bigger emphasis on the German royalty and dress of WWI – under the Kaiser. One sibling and I had the frowned upon brown eyes and were tortured and mocked as “the Jewess whore pigs”. One sibling had the desired blue eyes, and was the “chosen one”.

One prominent alleged Masonic ritual I recall, was performed on my fourth birthday. I found a description of the ceremonial props and attire I remembered in the book, The Secret Teachings of the Masonic Lodge: A Christian Perspective, by John Ankerberg and John Weldon. On page 131, they quote from the Scottish Rite Masonry Illustrated: “The Lodge Master is “Thrice Puissant,” impersonating Christ, who has “all power.” The Master is “seated on a throne and holds a Sceptre, “with the blue canopy of the heavens over him….And his lodge members are “clothed in white linen robes,” like attending Angels…and on the jewel[crown] is engraved “Alpha and Omega….”

During the ceremony, I was placed naked on an altar before the “Master”, and a white, square linen cloth was placed under my bottom. The “Master” then lanced my vagina with the phallic-shaped, gold or bronze scepter as the attendants held me down. The bloodied cloth was then picked up and paraded around to the cheers of the people. (This took place outside, beside a bonfire.) Later, the Master, who allegedly was also my doctor, carved a cross underneath my urinary meatus; thus, he created an ankh (a cross with a looped top). The “breeders for the cult were allegedly marked this way, the “chosen” received an ankh carved on their left thumb. I found in the book, Hidden Secrets of Masonry, by Dr. Cathy Burns, a quote from “Mithras”, The World Book Encyclopedia, P. 566, stating: “…Ankh is a symbol of reincarnation and of worship to…the sun god of Egypt….It also means that in order to worship him in his rites you may have given up your virginity and practiced orgies.”

Therefore , my virginity was sacrificed to this “god” which my cult referred to as “Baal”. From this day on, those of us who underwent this particular ceremony were used for all manner of sexual abuse, child pornography, and “breeding”. If the “bred” child was female, she was aborted out, sacrificed, used for ritual purposes, etc….My baby girl, whom I gave birth to when I was twelve, was allowed to live because her paternal grandparents wanted her. (I’m unsure of the “arrangement” made for her apparent “adoption” and am still in the process of trying to find my daughter.) The goal of the breeding, was to produce a male from my father’s bloodline to sacrifice. I have the distinct impression that this event would move him up in the hierarchy of the cult. Unfortunately, I produced a son in 1976. Upon his birth, which was induced by the doctor, he was taken to live in a designated home until the day of his sacrifice – Christmas Eve, 1976. The mind control was so complete during the pregnancies, births, and eventual sacrifices, that we consciously never realized we were pregnant (being told we were just fat, lazy uglies), and never remembered our babies – until this year. Like many other survivors, we were allegedly programmed to suicide or “go crazy” upon remembering the ritual abuse. By the grace of God, neither I or my siblings gave in to this final program.

Probably the worst feature of this alleged cult group, was that it allegedly hid itself within the framework of a mainline denominational church. Most of the alleged cult members were the controlling powers of this church; the pastors either being “puppets” or active members of the cult. One pastor was known for his expertise in hypnosis and was/is utilized in this capacity for the benefit of the cult. In fact, the current sanctuary of this church was designed allegedly according to Masonic/cult standards. The design was offensive to non-cult members, and the church “split” when the design was approved. The altar is a behemoth grey cement structure with six sides. The entire altar area is of the same grey cement, as is the southern wall behind the altar. On the wall, is a black wrought iron “abstract” Jacob’s ladder, with one black angel pointing head up, and one pointing head down upon the ladder. All the windows were stained glass, except for one “privacy glassed” window to the left of the altar area. No one can see in. The altar area also has a floor to ceiling wooden cross on the left side. The cult performed their alleged rituals and sacrifices here, or in other isolated facilities or wilderness areas.

My primary concern in writing this letter, is that the evidence I found indicates that this alleged cult is still going strong. The church now operates a school for very young children. They’ve got to be stopped. I am working with law enforcement in the Southern California area. If you recognize any of these alleged cult members, locales, ceremonies, etc….please contact me and describe what you know. Please do so anonymously for safety reasons. My father relocated when we escaped California and moved to Michigan. He now allegedly heads up a similar cult group in the Southern Michigan area. Law enforcement there allegedly appears to be uncooperative and “unsafe”. In Michigan, the theatre community is allegedly intertwined with cult activities, as well as the Masons are allegedly.

The “Kathleen Sullivan” article in (S.M.A.R.T.) newsletter #12 sounds very similar to my experiences; yet, they occurred so far apart in this country. I’ve found in my research, these secret societies interweave much like a spider’s web. Common threads allegedly include: Freemasonry, Rosicrucians, the Illuminatti, the Ordo Templi Orientis, Knights Templar, the Golden Dawn, Theosophy, Aleister Crowley, Church of Satan, Naziism, white supremacy, Christian mysticism, black magick, witchcraft and Satanism. The list really goes on and on…..Basically, whatever “pet” debauchery the alleged cult is into, there’s some belief system out there to justify it.

I have remembered the incantation we children had to say at the end of a ritual bonfire: “Children of the bonfire, children of the night, circle round the embers, gaze into the light. Sights are left unseen, sounds are left unheard, Never to remember, what we’ve seen or heard. Children of the bonfire, children of the night……….. “

Also there was a hypnotic count back I have recalled: “3, 2, 1,…wake up with the sun.” There was a left-hand “benediction” signal given: (ring finger & pinky turned down, the other fingers up) as a hypnotic “object” was held forward with the right hand. The hypnotic code names for the children were either a cartoon character’s name, a favorite toy’s name, or other storybook character type names.

An alleged favorite ritual spot was a nearby retreat center that caters to an international clientele. It goes by a “Christian” title, allegedly similar to the Rosicrucian’s and Mason’s version of “christianity”. This place was allegedly closed down in 1979 by the F.B.I. because sacrificial remains were found there. However, the shutdown was only temporary. This is a remote place, with one road in, and one road out – very heavily guarded and secure. Teenagers from many of the surrounding communities would allegedly drive out there for thrills at night because of the Satanic goings on rumored to occur there. An armed security guard would allegedly meet you at the gate and ask your name and the password. That’s about as much as I can share with you about this alleged compound.

Basements were also an alleged favorite ritual site. They allegedly existed at church, retreat center, a private home, and other sites.

In closing, my siblings and I remember many, many children used by this cult over decades. If any of this sounds familiar, triggers alarms in you, or if you recognize any of these places, methods, etc…Please write me.

God bless you and keep you. Stay safe and strong. Sincerely, C. A. Beck, Box 11133, Prescott, AZ 86304

S.M.A.R.T. wants to thank the author for the article. As always, please use caution when responding to any article in this newsletter.

The information for the following article came from “The Liberator, November-December 1996: Volume V, Number 4, published by With One Accord Ministries. More information will follow this article. Please use caution while reading, it may be triggering.

Evangelist Charles Finney (1792-1875) was an ex-Mason who wrote one of the first anti-Masonic books in 1869, called “The Character, Claims, and Practical Workings of Freemasonry”. The book will include a brief introduction tracing the history of the anti-Masonic movement, with an epilogue from four Southern Baptist pastors allegedly ousted from their churches by Masons.

Finney’s book discusses William Morgan’s anti-Masonic book (which cost Morgan his life), showing the considerable influence Morgan’s book had on Baptists and other religious figures.

The book (unaltered) is available through JKI Publishing, P O Box 13140, Tyler, TX 75713. For more information on With One Accord Ministries, write: P O Box 457, Dubuque, IA 52004-0457, phone 319-583-5473, fax 319-583-2998, e-mail:



I am a sociologist of religion who has presented research findings about ritual abuse allegations at a conferences about ritual abuse. I will be pleased to snail-mail you three published articles that I have written about ritual abuse allegations, two of which contain sections on the deviant Masonic accounts that I have heard. In essence, no other philanthropic group shows up in so many accounts as does Freemasonry. Specifically in one of the articles, I discuss why this may be so–what is it about Freemasonry that could harbor paedophiles and abusers.

Please know that I maintain appropriate academic detachment in my analysis, so that the lack of definitive proof for these allegations forces me to stop short of saying that they represent accurate memories. Nonetheless, I sure do hear lots of tales about very bad abuse in deviant Masonic settings, and I take them VERY seriously.

Best Regards, Steve Kent
Department of Sociology, University of Alberta, Edmonton, Alberta, Can. T6G 2H4, Phone:403-492-2204, Fax:403-492-7196, E-mail:

S.M.A.R.T. wants to thank Professor Kent for his permission to publish this letter. An article on Professor Kent’s research articles can be found in S.M.A.R.T. #6, Page 2-4. Prof. Kent is also looking for additional information and personal accounts about secret societies and ritual abuse.

SMART note: as always, please use caution when writing anyone mentioned in this newsletter.

(please use caution while reading,
poems may be triggering)

The following poem comes from “Rainwolf, ‘we are male'”

i saw last night

i saw last night a falling star
(that is, last night i saw
a meteorite enter the earth’s atmosphere
burning away before it hit the ground)
as i was crossing in my car
the railroad tracks
that run from detroit to chicago
to des moines and utah and seattle.
places i have seen, been
and was a part of commerce there.

but this star passed over
the eastbound freight train
(actually, the star was miles and miles high
and probably was nowhere near where i was.
it just felt that way.)
and i was thinking about the last time i had seen such a star
such a thing as this,
and all i could recall were the stars that i had missed for having turned away
to broken glass upon the ground
that shimmers like a diamond ring.

and so, i thought of timeless things when i saw this star and i realized i was lucky to have seen it at all.
wouldn’t it be great, i thought,
if i could make the stars spin the way i wanted them to?
i would have directed that one down on me, directly on my head and,
laying their most likely dead
and smoldering and crushed,
everyone would say
“this was meant to be most obviously.”

imagine the front page
and all the tv shows.
imagine all the books and magazines and songs about how mercifully the atmosphere and meteors took on little earthbound me.

everytime an angel falls
a cocoon bursts open rainbow flies
dried oranges, notes and pins upon
the kitchen walls and i am calling children home
my children home down inside the gold mines,
the salt mines,
the soft mind of cushion stepped paraded
clowns and velvet chains of love
with bumblebee sting.

that star, it seems,
(i mean, that burning meteorite,
that burning dirty ball of ice and cosmic waste)
changed a couple things for me.


Please use caution while contacting any resource listed, some may be triggering.

S. I. A. is a twelve step organization for survivors of incest. For more information, write: S.I.A. P O Box 21817, Baltimore, MD 21222, phone 410-282-3400

To receive the book “Healing the Whole: The Diary of an Incest Survivor” by Y.M. Pennachia, Cassell PLC, 1995 call 718-776-0203, or write Healing the Whole, P O Box 640206, Oakland Garden, NY 11364-0206

The book “Beyond Survival” is on home page This home page offers powerful spiritual and Shamanic techniques for healing from child abuse. The book helps those surviving childhood abuse to thrive in life.

ACAA and One Voice are looking for support are looking for support to help stop child abuse. For info. write: One Voice, P O 27958, Washington, DC 20038, 202-667-1160,, or ACAA, P O 27959, Wash, DC 20038, 202-462-4688, e-mail:

Victims and Advocates Start Talking (VAST!) is working to place Laura Clem (age 6) in a safe home, away from her alleged abusive home. For more info, VAST, 6007 Hillside Ave, E. Drive, Indianapolis, IN 46220

SMART has heard from AFF that CAN’s (the Cult Awareness Network) logo and license agreement was purchased on October 23, 1996, by the law firm which represented the Church of Scientology for several years. Any publications or communications coming from CAN after October 23, 1996 shouldn’t be regarded as having come from CAN’s previous personnel or officers.

Voices of Incest is presenting therapy groups for survivors in the LA area. For info. call 310-452-8996, or write: P.O. Box 5593, Santa Monica, CA 90409.

Center for the Prevention of Sexual and Domestic Violence has videos and educational materials available. Write or call: 936 N. 34th St. #200, Seattle,WA 98103, 206-634-1903.

Working in the Vineyard is now called The Grapevine and has moved to P O Box 7581, Charlotte, NC 28241, phone/fax 803-548-5959

VOICES In Action, Inc. is seeking any information about an island near Charlevoix, Michigan that is a possible hangout or gathering spot for pedophiles. If we can establish any credibility to this report we will contact the authorities immediately. If you can provide any information on this please email VOICES or call them at 1- 800-7-VOICE-8.

Fritz Springmeier has books, tapes, videos and a newsletter about the Masons, Jehovah’s Witnesses’ Watchtower Society, the Illuminati and mind control. Some of the literature is Christian in nature. For info: Fritz and Cisco, 916 Lynn Ave., Oregon City, OR 97045

The Cutting Edge – a newsletter for women living with self-inflicted violence ran a very nice press release for SMART recently. They wrote, “This newsletter is devoted to exposing (alleged) Masonic ritual abuse and helping survivors of abuse by secret societies. It is the only newsletter I know of that addresses this risky topic….This publication can be profoundly validating to survivors of this type of ritual abuse, and can be informative for anyone interested in the topic.” The Cutting Edge has a lot of good information on self inflicted violence. Write: The Cutting Edge, P.O. Box 20819, Cleveland, OH 44120

Family Violence and Sexual Assault Institute will be having a conference, “Children Exposed to Family Violence”. For more information, write: 1121 E SE Loop 323, #130, Tyler, TX 75701, phone: 903-534-5100, fax 903-534-5454, e-mail: .

S.M.A.R.T. has learned that Margaret Singer (co-author of “Cults in Our Midst” is a member of the FMSF (False Memory Syndrome Foundation) Scientific and Professional Advisory Board. S.M.A.R.T. wants to thank a subscriber for this information.