Issue 26 – May 1999

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Issue 26- May 1999

The purpose of this newsletter is to help stop secretive organizations and groups from abusing others and to help those who have been allegedly abused by the Masons, Mormons, government agencies and other secretive groups.

This newsletter is not a substitute for other ways of recovering from ritual abuse. Readers should use caution while reading this newsletter. If necessary, make sure other support systems are available during and after reading this newsletter.

The resources mentioned in this newsletter are for educational value only. Reading the books cited may or may not help your recovery process, so use caution when reading any book or contacting any resource mentioned in this newsletter. Some may have a religious or other agenda that may be separate from your own recovery process. Others may have valuable information on the Masons and other organizations, but have triggers or be somewhat sympathetic to those organizations. Resources listed, quoted and individual articles, etc. and their writers do not necessarily support all or any of the views mentioned in this newsletter. Also, the views, facts and opinions mentioned in this newsletter are solely the opinions of the authors and are not necessarily the opinions of this newsletter or its editor.

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Editor’s Page

The following article is by Neil Brick, the editor and founder of S.M.A.R.T.

With an often biased media barrage that the false memory syndrome exists, even those survivors with a great deal of documentation and many years of memories may occasionally doubt their memories. I wanted to share a few quotes from: “Memory, Trauma Treatment, and the Law” by Brown, Scheflin and Hammond,” (ISBN 0-393-70254-5) W.W. Norton and Co. New York and London, C 1998 ( Page 365-366. The book has excellent information about memory studies and a chapter called “The False Logic of the False Memory Controversy and the Irrational Element in Scientific Research on Memory” (pg. 382)

From chapter 11: “A Critical Evaluation of the Memory Scientific Experiments,” section: “WHAT DO WE KNOW ABOUT MEMORY FALLIBILTY?”

“Loftus’s claim that human memory in general is fallible (1979a,b) and that therefore memories recovered in psychotherapy are equally fallible (1993) is both overstated and oversimplified (Koss et al., 1995).” The conclusion that “negative emotional arousal hinders accurate…memory” (Loftus, 1980, p.78) is misleading…” Loftus’ conclusion only applies “to laboratory simulation studies of memory for complex visual presentations” when a certain type of information is measured. “These simulation studies rarely show memory fallibility with respect to the emotional arousing event itself.” Generalizing findings on memory fallibilty are misleading when “certain types of visual information presented in the laboratory” are transferred to the “autobiographical memory of patients in psychotherapy.”

“….The early studies… led to a distorted view of memory fallibilty because they were biased toward assessing memory performance in terms of” all the information contained in “a complex visual stimulus presentation (Clifford & Hollin, 1981; Clifford & Scott, 1978)” or because they looked for “peripheral background details…” “More sophisticated studies…have clearly demonstrated that memory is well and accurately retained for the gist of a central action…or a negative emotional event even over long retention intervals,” where “only the peripheral background details are poorly retained.” This compares to “…Bartlett’s (1932) original studies on memory for the War of the Ghosts,… gist memory was well preserved while memory for minor details was highly inaccurate.”

“General, overstated claims about memory fallibility” don’t take into consideration “the complex interaction of variables that affect memory performance.”


The following article comes from a survivor. Please use caution while reading. It may be triggering. It has been edited for legal reasons. Please note: all accusations are alleged.

My Anger, My Friend

In 1988 I began having all the symptoms of PTSD; anxiety and panic attacks, nightmares, flashbacks, etc. I enlisted the help of a therapist and was diagnosed with PTSD, MPD [now called DID] and depression.

My memories include Satanic Ritual Abuse and alleged Government Mind Control Experimentation and Torture. My abuse began at birth and continued throughout my teen years. I don’t know the actual date it stopped. I do know its effects ontinued throughout adulthood. I didn’t choose my life; I was trained to meet certain people, to join specific groups and/or factions and to study definite beliefs. In essence, my life was not my own. This was the effect which the alleged Government Mind Control Experimentation and Torture had on me. I was programmed.

The first time a counselor pointed out my flat affect was 1977. My face didn’t tell what I felt. I had a monotone voice. My smile was deceptive. It didn’t always mean I was happy.

In 1988 as therapy progressed, emotions surfaced. I was terrified of any feeling. I tried to block them all. When I finally cried for the first time, I thought the flood of tears would never end. Sadness enveloped my life for seven years.

I was especially terrified of anger, rage and wrath. I would experience brief periods of rage punctuated with great fear and trepidation. I felt like something horrible would happen to me or someone else. I couldn’t endure anyone’s anger either.

For the first seven years of my recovery, I didn’t have a contextual reference for some of my memories. I called them military experimentation and torture. The memories were ambiguous. I didn’t understand them. They didn’t fit with the SRA memories. Furthermore I thought they weren’t very important. I soon learned otherwise.

Eventually the Government Mind Control memories emerged with clarity in 1997. At last I had a context for these memories; the abuse happened before and/or after rituals. And sometimes the MC abuse occurred without connection to a ritual. Further I began to understand my fear and trepidation of anger, rage and wrath.

One significant memory involves being trained to assassinate. My “trainers” and “handlers” purposely used drugs and various stimuli to enrage me. Once in a rage, I was trained to unleash wrath upon someone and assassinate them. If I failed to complete my “assignment” I was threatened with death. Finally I understood my feelings about expressing any degree of anger. Anger and its expression meant death for either me or someone else. A change began within my system. At last there was a separation between truth and MC programming. The truth was no one would die if I got angry now.

Ownership of my anger occurred with the support of my therapist. The therapist demonstrated healthy anger to me and validated the horrors of my abuse. Whenever I shared memories, he expressed anger and mirrored my own anger back to me. The disconnection from my anger began to fade. The more the therapist validated and mirrored me, the more I began to let go and express the rage and anger within. As I did, I experienced more freedom from the MC programming. I began to take back my own life. I could accept all of me. All emotions were okay, even the once dreaded and feared anger.

In the months to follow, I found many healthy ways to express my anger. Instead of a lined journal I bought a large artist’s sketch book. I told everyone within, “This is your place to express your feelings any way you choose.” Without lines any age alter can emerge to write or draw. Memories emerge more freely too. I also use collage, cut pictures out of magazines to create a new picture.

Recently I added one more step to this process. I use collage as a reservoir of information and feelings. From there I design a drawing with colored pencils which may contain some or all of the elements in the collage. I am free to express whatever feelings that arise during this process. I can do this verbally, artistically or through journaling. It depends on who is out, their talents and abilities.

Perhaps the most important was acceptance of any expression which would allow feelings and inflict no harm on myself or others. During this time I accepted a major part’s method to express their feelings. Her avenue was/is play acting, playing and acting out the abuse and speaking it out loud. Furthermore this method confirmed memories and revealed many important names and places. During these times of play acting all emotions are available.

In conclusion, my anger is my friend. My anger helped me leave an abusive marriage. My anger protects me and gives me boundaries. My anger is a creative and freeing force in my life. My anger empowers and fuels my creativity in art.

Ultimately, my anger is the power which enables me to move beyond survivor to thriver.

Kaitland, a pseudonym
age 45


The following article comes from a letter written to us by a subscriber. Please use caution while reading. It has descriptions of rituals and may be triggering. It has been edited to protect the identity of the survivor and for legal reasons. Please note: all accusations are alleged.

Dear Neil,

Please renew my subscription to S.M.A.R.T. Enclosed is a check for $12.00. I want to thank you for providing this valuable publication. In 1997, after an elaborate triggering process that I endured I discovered that I was a Mind Control experiment for the Masonic order my father belonged to. The memories I was dealing with were so extremely evil that I had no idea nor could I imagine that such evilness existed in this world. Thankfully, I reached out to many organizations. S.M.A.R.T. was the first organization I had come in contact with that really helped me immensely in understanding that I am not alone and talked about some of the things I endured. I cannot express to you enough how extremely important your work is to all of us survivors or how grateful I am that you were out there when I was discovering what was done to my life. I am also profoundly sorry that you and so many others have suffered as I did and I hope that you continue to recover and thrive in this world.

I have documented my story with several other organizations. I only wish there was some sort of independent task force interested in investigating survivors’ stories and taking an active stance in stopping this insanity and exposing it. This is important because as long as these people are able to do such atrocities and hide it from their victims by trauma, hypnosis, drugs, e-weapons and brainwashing techniques they will continue to do this to other children.

I want to address electronic weaponry by stating that I have been victimized periodically throughout my life by these weapons. These weapons do exist and they are extremely destructive. Masonry is an alleged hangout for witchcraft and Satanism and these people use e-weapons to create illusions of divine intervention demon possession and Satanic forces, witchcraft and black magic There is no magic only e-weapons that are completely devastating to their victims. E-weapons are their power source not only for victims of alleged Masonic Ritual Abuse but for the people born into the Masonic Control System.

I believe that what was done to me and my Mother was allegedly Government sponsored. Periodically, throughout my childhood I was severely abused. Simultaneously, the same thing was happening to my Mother. Even though we both lived together neither of us knew what was being done to each other nor to ourselves. My Mother was allegedly murdered in a sick secretive ceremony on Halloween 1975. My Mother was institutionalized when I was 3-4 years old. She was given electroshock treatment causing her to have no memories of what occurred to her in the institution. She was then told she had Systemic Lupus Erythmatosis which I believe was drug induced so that they could continue to medically abuse her until they allegedly murdered her. From what I remember that was done to me is at 6 years old in 1966. I was tortured vaginally followed by being forced to handle disgusting things, stab potatoes and then dead cats. For second and third grade I was put into special classes where I was hypnotized and forced into participating in the torture of cats. In 1975, I was drugged and kidnapped where I was gang raped by my Father and my future in-law family. After the rape I was drugged again, brought into a room, strapped to a chair with a helmet on where I only remember flashing images and lights and feeling intense pain for even thinking the wrong thoughts or the thoughts they did not want me to have. I awoke a week later at my home with my father telling me my Mother was dead and I had no memory of what was done to me except that I knew I was missing a week. My Mother’s funeral was completely staged. I believe they implanted my Mother so that she had no control of her body. She was murdered. I met my husband a few years later and moved with him. His family was always psychologically abusive to me (they are also Nazis) in 1997. In 1997, I was retraumatized and for the first time in my life I am dealing with the truth of what has been done to my life. All of this was made possible by people in my life. This took the cooperation of police officers, lawyers, doctors, therapists, hospitals, public schools, the funeral home, my family and friends. An elaborate lifelong struggle that I am not impressed with but completely disgusted with. Even though I know you’ve heard a lot of stories out there, my story still seems unbelievable, but it is the truth. It’s just so disgusting that so many people were involved in making this happen and hiding the truth. I know that I did not do a very good job at telling the story, but it is very difficult for me to articulate in words just what was done to me and to my Mother. I have not read about staging funerals so that the person can be murdered on a Satanic holiday without drawing attention to it. I wanted to provide this information to you. So that if you chose to share it with your readers you could. It is important that we address what these people are capable of doing to another human being.

I finally found a therapist and I continue to see her. I pray every day that there are no more children enduring this craziness. Thanks again, Neil.

Sincerely, R. M.

S.M.A.R.T. wants to thank R. M. for sending us this letter. Many of the rituals mentioned in this letter have happened to other survivors of alleged Masonic ritual abuse.

Masonic Infiltration Article

The Campaign for Radical Truth in History website has information on the “Masonic Infiltration of British Police Investigated.” at and “Masonic Symbolism in the Assassination of John F. Kennedy” by J. Downard with M. Hoffman II at Please use caution at these sites, they may be very triggering. Also, connected sites may be anti-Semitic.

The following quotes are from the first site (all accusations are alleged): “The English press reported in February, 1998 that the leaders of Britain’s Freemasons” were told to “name members involved in infiltrating and corrupting the police.”

“The United Grand Lodge of England is the target of a Parliamentary probe” looking “to register Freemasons … employed as police officers.” Last summer “Parliament asked the Grand Lodge to identify which of 161 people” were Masons and were “involved in a series of notorious police scandals…” which included “setting up innocent people for bombings and a shoot-to-kill, vigilante police squad…”

The United Grand Lodge, claimed it found “only ten possible Masons on the list, refused.”

“….There are 340,000 Freemasons in England and Wales, and their influence reaches into the British Royal Family.”

Legal Article

The following article comes from information from the “Houston Chronicle, 03/30/99 Pg. 17, titled “Another ex-defendant wants government to pay legal costs” by Mark Smith “A former Spring Shadows Glen hospital administrator” who recently freed himself from fraud charges (on insurance), wants the government to pay his legal expenses.

“George Jerry Mueck filed a motion in federal court Monday” looking for “as much as $1.7 million in attorney fees and other expenses” via a 1977 law that lets criminal defendants that win “in federal court to collect legal expenses if the prosecution is deemed “vexatious, frivolous or in bad faith.””

Mueck’s attorneys claimed that federal prosecutors knew that “neither law nor evidence provided grounds for prosecuting the former hospital administrator.” The brief was filed by Thomas Hagemann, with Mayor, Day, Caldwell & Keeton.

“Five former Spring Shadows Glen workers were tried on charges of using “mind control” techniques to prolong patients’ treatment…” Patients testified the therapy “induced or reinforced memories of abuse in a satanic cult.” Some claim they believe the memories are now false. “Defense attorneys said their clients provided appropriate treatment.” A mistrial was declared, when the panel of jurors and alternates dropped to 11. “The government decided not to retry the case and the charges were dismissed.”

One other therapist has also filed charges and three more also have a limited time to do so.


The following poems are from a subscriber. Please use caution while reading. They may be triggering.


I went to ‘Nam – without ever having been sent to boot camp.
I had a gun pointed into my back. Often heard gunfire.

I was tied to a bed with rope
Blindfolded, and raped.
Tortured, totally in the darkness, in fear and alone.
I was threatened.
I was told not to tell. Not… to… breathe… — a word…to anybody.
-or I would be killed and my mother also.

So I didn’t tell…anyone. Sometimes, I still can’t. I am MUTE then.
And no one knew or I would be killed.
And no one knew or my MOM would be killed.
I had to be silent Prepared.. Ready for the gun. For anything.- Without boot camp.
No one knew that I was blinded.
I told no one that I had been raped.
I believed the threats because of who he was. I believed them and accepted them
into the innermost part of my unique being.
I was a soldier. Without knowing about boot camp. I fought many wars. ALONE.

I was raped, blinded, tortured, pled for my sanity and prayed to be left alone.

I was told I would be killed, and when I died, that I would be sent to hell.
-That there would be no redemption.
I was slain, and eventually died.

I fought in cold cruel
wars, with no one knowing,…
with no escaping. . . without ever leaving home.
And my mom, and my brother, and my sister-in-law. and my Aunt.
– They can all say what they want to.
But I had courage
…I have courage

By J. D.

Recovery from Incest

I have a saying
for when my self destruct tapes surface
I don’t hurt myself
I don’t hurt someone else
I don’t destroy property
I don’t go crazy

It’s okay to love myself

I have another saying
“each time I am able to get thru the pain of my anguish without hurting myself I’ve built up a little more of the warrior spirit and haven’t let my perps destroy me” *

I know constructive ways of dealing with anger and other feelings.

S. Progress c 1992

*”The Courage to Heal” (Bass/Davis)


Please note: Listing of these resources does not necessarily constitute our endorsement of them. They are for educational value only and some may be triggering.

Please also note. Some of the conferences listed may not necessarily be safe for all survivors. S.M.A.R.T. recommends always bringing a support person to all conferences. If you are a survivor of mind control and/or ritual abuse, S.M.A.R.T. recommends that you try to bring a support person that is familiar with mind control techniques.

SMART 1998 conference tapes are now on special until 5/15/99. All 9 tapes total cost US $36, Canada and Mexico $40, rest of world $44. Please send payment in US dollars, US bank checks (payable to S.M.A.R.T.) only, please.

The Professional Paranoid by H. Michael Sweeney. How to fight back if followed, surveilled, stalked, investigated, or harassed by any person, group, or agency. There is information on electronic eavesdropping, computer security, mind-control issues, women’s safety issues and stalkers. Hundreds of alleged CIA fronts (over 200 mind-control related) are listed along with other revealing tidbits on/from FBI, NSA, CIA, etc. It also addresses the psychological issues involved with being investigated, harassed, or simply labeled as “paranoid.” Order from Feral House at, from, or any local bookstore. As always, please use caution when contacting any organization or reading any book listed in our resource section.

House of Peace Ministries has speakers available for speaking engagements on the topic of SRA. Write: P O Box 486, Bloomington, IN 47402

Women in Renewal, Inc. provides Christian-based counseling and support to facilitate emotional healing and spiritual growth in families dealing with domestic violence. Write: P O Box 102, Berrien Ctr, MI 49102

Please use caution while reading. This may be triggering. Looking for survivors of ritual abuse by cult practicing “magick” in New York or elsewhere. Led by a man with a red beard and a Scottish accent, possibly called a “master” or “high priest.” He would be approximately 70 today. The rituals took place in the 1960’s and 70’s. Please send all replies to S.M.A.R.T. with .75 postage for forwarding. As always, please use caution contacting any resource in this newsletter.

Media Anonymous is for individuals who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from the effects of media dependency. The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop compulsive bottom line behavior in relation to media. For info, see:

When God Becomes a Drug: Breaking the Chains of Religious Addiction and Abuse by Father Leo Booth, Jeremy P. Tarcher Pub. L.A., the following quotes are from, John A. Speyrer, reviewer. “…use of a rigid religious belief system…as a means of escaping or avoiding painful feelings….the personal rigidity of its purveyors who discourage any kind of questioning or disbelief (make a system addictive)….The author believes that there is oftentimes a pairing of alcohol addiction or food abuse with religious addiction….the development of religious addiction is similar to the development of alcohol addiction and makes his point with a number of case studies….12 step program(s)…(are) a way to recovery from religious addiction…”

Please use caution at the following site. The graphics and text may be triggering.

Secret Societies/New World Order by Milton William Cooper. This includes discussion of brotherhoods, initiations, Nazis, KKK, the Templars, Illuminati, Freemasons, Skulls and Bones, Council on Foreign Relations, Trilateral Commission, the alleged connection of the current Pope to selling cyanide gas to the Nazis in WWII, the Bilderbergs, etc. The article is available at:

Please use caution, may be triggering.
Messing With Our Minds, an article by Husayn Al-Kurdi, “with (alleged) links to CIA mind control experts and accused child abusers, the false memory movement turns “blaming the victim” into a science.” The article mentions West, Orne, Singer, MK-Ultra, the Freyds, Underwager and Wakefield, Loftus, etc., at:

Kai Bashir has a mind control information home page at: Please use caution at this page and when watching these videos. They may be triggering. She also has free video tapes from a five-part series on mind control and the government radiation experiments that aired on Cincinnati’s public TV station. For more info., write K. Bashir, P O Box 30366, Cinc. OH 45230, E-mail:

The  URL’s listed below may be very triggering and/or are sympathetic to alleged perpetrators. Please use caution when visiting these sites., Supreme Council of the Ancient Accepted Scottish Rite Northern Masonic Jurisdiction web site, has information about the Freemasons and the schizophrenia research program., The Museum of Our Natural Heritage web site, is an American History Museum founded and supported by 32 degree Scottish Rite Freemasons.