Issue 3 July 1995

The purpose of this newsletter is to help stop secretive organizations and groups from abusing others and to help those who have been allegedly abused by the Masons, Mormons, government agencies and other secretive groups.

This newsletter is not a substitute for other ways of recovering from ritual abuse. Readers should use caution while reading this newsletter. If necessary, make sure other support systems are available during and after reading this newsletter.

The resources mentioned in this newsletter are for educational value only. Reading the books cited may or may not help your recovery process, so use caution when reading any book or contacting any resource mentioned in this newsletter. Some may have a religious or other agenda that may be separate from your own recovery process. Others may have valuable information on the Masons and other organizations, but have triggers or be somewhat sympathetic to those organizations. Resources listed, quoted and individual articles, etc. and their writers do not necessarily support all or any of the views mentioned in this newsletter. Also, the views, facts and opinions mentioned in this newsletter are solely the opinions of the authors and are not necessarily the opinions of this newsletter or its editor.

Copyright 1999 All rights reserved.
No reproduction of any material without written permission from the editor and individual authors.

“The Greatest Revenge is to Heal, then turn around and Help Someone Else.” from Working in
the Vineyard (now called “The Grapevine”)

Please note: this issue has been edited for legal and grammatical reasons and for reasons of clarity.

Survivor Article

Please note: all accusations are alleged. The article has been edited for legal reasons. Please use caution while reading this article. It may be triggering. This article was written by one of our subscribers. She is seeking information or correspondence with anyone who may have
information about a possible Nazi Free Mason Occult group or the Knights Templar or
Assassinism. The article is copywritten by _____, Copyright May 9, 1995.

I am writing this article to find out the answers to some questions.

My family coven was in Nazi Free Mason Occult.
They became involved with an extended family, who eventually must have become their enemies
because my family has become completely silent about them. I had a very positive, loving and
protective experience with the LL family women, and for 15 years now I have been trying to find them in particular, a very loving LL family woman who was known to me only as “Granny”. I have not been able to find this family through adoptive agencies, though family trees, through private detectives, or through many other methods that I have tried. My family has kept stone silent about them. I am 99% certain that I was the result of an affair in this family , an affair between a member of the LL family and my Free Mason Occult family which is named VB. The VBs may also have stolen me away from the LLs, because I know that my occult family didn’t always come by their babies legally. I have never been totally accepted by the VB family. That family treated me like an outsider and especially made me a scapegoat in too many of their violent rituals and other violent crimes. They treated my “sister” like a Madonna and treated me like a whore. I remember being taken along when they committed many alleged illegal abductions, including illegal abductions of children and babies.

So it’s natural that for many years I’ve been thinking that I, too, may have been one of these alleged illegal abductees. I remember being in and out of LL’s lives, being secretly snatched back and forth between them and the VBs.

If any of the readers out there have any information about the LLs, any information that could help me, if those readers could send me that information, I would most appreciate it. Also if any
of the S.M.A.R.T. readers out there know of any of the connections between the LLs and the VB family, if those readers could write and tell me about it, I would most appreciate that, too. There’s one other family that was in the LL extended family, and that was called LI (that name may have been spelled in various other ways, too). So if any S.M.A.R.T. readers know anything about a LI occult family, if they could write to me about it or talk to me about it. I’d deeply appreciate it. The LLs were not in the occult. The VBs and the LIs were in the occult. I think that the horrible family sin that was committed was that a VB had an extramarital affair with a LL. It must be understood here that everything sexual in my Free Mason occult family had to be completely arranged , there was absolutely no free choice on the part of the VB women and children. Only the VB men had any and all free choice. Suffice it to say , this extramarital affair was extremely dangerous ,and, upon discovery, the VB participant was
UNBELIEVABLY HARSHLY punished, and I, the result of this affair, was punished for all of my life. Anyways, the LLs have never been mentioned again by the Vbs, and I have been trying to find the LLs and solve my life’s mystery. As it is, I feel very incomplete and unwhole, I have never had an identity. If any of the S.M.A.R.T. readers could help me with any pertinent information that they have or know, if they could pass it on to me, I would be most grateful.

The second mystery of my life that I’m trying to solve is about Nazi Free Mason Occult. Did any S.M.A.R.T. readers grow up in any Nazi Free Mason Occult families? I haven’t been able to
completely recover because of so much unknown. The majority of my alleged perpetrators were men, men in the Nazi Free Masons Occult. They were also known as Knights Templar and Assassins. Their occult was also known as Assassinism. I allege they unsuccessfully tried to brainwash me into becoming an assassin under the cover of being a highclass call girl, but I’ve always had a mind of my own and I was always busy informing on them to the government. Needless to say, that got me into a lot of trouble, but that’s all behind me now and I’m safe. I’m safe for many reasons, but the overall main reason that I’m safe is that I passed what used to be a failsafe trial test in my family coven. All the other previous family traitors failed the trial test and I allege they were summarily executed. I have been the first family member to successfully pass this test and because the whole family coven is so gripped with paranoia and suspicion, they haven’t touched me or come near me or harmed me. They have kowtowed to me and tried to get me to come back into the family , but I told them all to go to hell. Anyways, now I’m trying to solve my life’s mystery and to recover from my violent past in my family. And there still is a lot
of mystery. There is still a lot I don’t know, and, like I said, I can never fully recover until I solve this mystery.

If there are any S.M.A.R.T. readers out there who have had any experiences with members of Nazi Free Mason Occult or with Knights Templar or with members of Assassinism, if you would like to talk with me about it or correspond with me about it, maybe we could help each other recover and solve our lives’ mysteries together, so if you would contact me, I would deeply appreciate it.

Sincere Thanks, from _____, Respectfully submitted by ____, Copyright May 9, 1995.

We want to thank ____ for her letter.

Book Review

In Issue 2 of S.M.A.R.T., an article was written about the book, “The Masonic Connection :
Hidden Secrets of the Eastern Star.” by Dr. Cathy Burns. She has also written a book called
“Hidden Secrets of Masonry.” The following article is collection of quotes and information from that book. Warning: Some material in this article may be triggering, please use caution while reading it. All accusations are alleged.

The beginning of the book discusses the fact “that the majority of people who join the Masons DO NOT really know what Masonry teaches… Delmar Darrah, a 33rd degree Mason explains: “The average man enters Freemasonry with LITTLE or NO KNOWLEDGE of the fraternity, its manner of organization, or its system of doing business”. (page 5)

“We are told that Masons believe in charity and good works, but Masonic writer, Ralph Anderson, a 32nd degree Mason, proclaims: “If the SOLE value is ethical (MORAL).. then Masonry has failed.. Arthur Waite… tells us that Masonry “is ON THE SURFACE a ‘system of morality, VEILED in allegory and illustrated by symbols. ” (page 6)

“In fact, Masonry INTENTIONALLY MISLEADS those Masons who have recently joined. Pike
(a 33rd degree Mason mine), claims: “The symbols and ceremonies of Masonry have MORE THAN ONE MEANING. They rather CONCEAL than disclose the truth.” . .”So Masonry jealously CONCEALS ITS SECRETS, AND INTENTIONALLY LEADS conceited interpreters
ASTRAY.” (page 7)

..Pike adds, “Masonry, like all the religions, all the Mysteries, Hermeticism and Alchemy, CONCEALS its secrets from ALL EXCEPT the Adepts and SAGES, or the Elect, and USES
FALSE EXPLANATIONS and MISINTERPRETATIONS of its symbols to MISLEAD those who deserve only to be misled; to CONCEAL the truth, which it calls Light, from them, and to draw them away from it. (page 7 and 8).

Review author’s note: Many cults have what is called a hidden agenda. New members are not
permitted to know “the truth” until they are already too deeply involved (or brainwashed) to leave. Most cults also have a severe consequence for leaving the group, such as death, hell, not achieving nirvana, etc.

“When a person enters Masonry, he joins what is called a Blue Lodge. Members of this Lodge may learn the first three degrees.. .most Masons never advance past the third degree The highest degree in the Scottish rite is the 33rd degree. (pg. 9). “Oaths are taken by the candidate and the horrible penalties are pronounced upon him should he betray the SECRETS of Masonry.. .the oath. .for the first degree is: . binding myself under no less penalty than that of having my throat cut from ear to ear, my tongue torn out by its roots, and buried in the sands of the sea a cable’s length from shore, where the tide ebbs and flows twice in twentyfour hours, should I ever willingly, knowingly, or unlawfully violate this, my Entered Apprentice Oath, so help me God and keep me steadfast.” (page 9 and 10).

In a poem written by J. S. M. Ward, a Mason, mentions that Osiris saved mankind. “Osiris is the
Egyptian god of the dead as well as a SUNGOD but he is also known by many other names…
Festivals held in his honor often resulted in HUMAN SACRIFICES AND ORGIASTIC (sexual) rites. (page 17) “It is to this god, Osiris (under the name of Hiram Abiff), that the Masons pay honor in the third degree.. .Any one who is familiar with Egyptian mythology should be able to see the correlation between the myth of Hiram Abiff and of the Egyptian god, Osiris. (page 18-19)

“Waite acknowledges that : There is NO QUESTION that the MYTH of Osiris covers the
WHOLE STORY of mystical life and is presented in the Funerary Ritual (the death and resurrection ceremony of the third degree)… We also as Masons LOOK FORWARD TO UNION of the departed with Osiris…” (page 19)

“Since the gods of Masonry … actually REPRESENT SATAN in different camouflages and
since the SERPENT is widespread in Masonry and the Bible clearly states that the SERPENT is
SATAN, we see that the Masons are in ACTUALITY worshipping SATAN (LUCIFER). ”
(page 24) Review author’s note: Satanists often “twist” or “reverse” the Bible to desecrate
religions and customs that are “in the light”.

“Pike brags: . Lucifer, the Light~bearer! Strange and mysterious name to give to the Spirit of
Darkness! Lucifer, the Son of the Morning! Is it he who bears the light..? Doubt it not ! Masonic testimony is clear that the SERPENT or SATAN (Lucifer) should be worshipped.” (page 25)

“In the third degree the Mason is given a SUBSTITUTE word.. Waite suggests that the Word revealed in the third degree was of similar value to our old friend ABRACADABRA”. He mentions elsewhere that since the sphere of Ritual is also a sphere of SORCERY, on proceeding to initiation he is given the symbol ABRACADABRA.. and is told it is the TRUE WORD…. Most people know that the word ABRACADABRA has to do with MAGIC,
but did you know that this word comes from ABRAXAS? ABRAXAS, by the way, is a DEMON! Masons are actually taught that this Demon is the TRUE WORD. ” (page 25-26)

“On July 14, 1889, Pike (a 33rd degree Mason) gave instructions to the 23 Supreme Councils of the World: .To you, Sovereign Grand Inspectors General (the name of the 33rd degree, the highest degree in Scottish Rite Masonry), we say this, that you may repeat it to the Brethren of the 32nd, 31st, and 30th degrees-The Masonic religion should be , by all of us initiates of the high degrees, maintained in the purity of the LUCIFERIAN DOCTRINE. YES,

‘MORALS AND DOGMA’ a book written by Pike is the handbook for the Masons. When Jim Shaw earned his 32nd degree… (he was given)..a copy of Albert Pike’s book. ..We were told that it was the source book for Freemasonry and its meaning.. C. Fred Kleinknecht, a 33rd degree Mason.. told all Masons . that one particular book was to be their daily guide for living their “Bible.” That book.. is Albert Pike’s ‘Morals and Dogma’.” (page 27 28) Review author’s note: It has been alleged that Albert Pike was also a co-founder of the KKK.

The inverted pentagram (upside down 5 pointed star) is commonly known as a Satanic symbol. “..the EASTERN STAR (a MASONIC organization composed of third degree Masons and women relatives of third degree Masons) uses the pentagram with the ONE POINT DOWN.. .The Mystic Shrine (another MASONIC group composed only of Masons who have advanced to the 32nd degree) also uses a pentagram with ONE POINT DOWN as its symbol.” (page 32)

“Hutchinson . . .brags “that we (Masonry) retain more of the ceremonials and doctrines of the
DRUIDS than is to be found in the whole world besides…” The DRUIDS were OCCULT priests
who WORSHIPPED MANY GODS. .and offered HUMAN SACRIFICES.” (page 33)

“J. Edward Decker reports that “‘The All Seeing Eye’ is a MASONIC representation of Osiris.
Osiris is the Egyptian god of the dead (and of the underworld) and part of the “Masonic trinity” to whom the Masons pay honor…” (page 34) “..the word “LUCIFER” means “LIGHT BEARER”, so Masons are the “children of light” or … “the children of Lucifer”…Masonic writer , Foster Bailey, says: …masters of wisdom… assist … the candidate.. until the time comes when he can “enter into light” and, in his turn become a LIGHTBEARER , one of the ILLUMINATI who can assist the Lodge on High in bringing humanity to light…The “Masters of Wisdom” are spirit guides (actually Demons) who are supposedly directing the way to a ONE WORLD ORDER and the ILLUMINATI is an
organization that was founded on May 1, 1776 by Adam Weishaupt. The name “Illuminati” is
derived from Lucifer. The Illuminati was dedicated to a “NEW WORLD ORDER” or a “ONE WORLD GOVERNMENT” … (page 36)

“The left hand side of the back of the dollar bill (U.S.) also contains a pyramid with the “All-Seeing-Eye” above it..” and the date of the founding of the Illuminati in Roman numerals and the words NEW WORLD ORDER in Latin. (page 37)

We want to thank Dr. Burns for the permission to use information from her book in our newsletter. If you would like to purchase the book or get more information about her organization, SHARING, you can write SHARING, 212M E. 7th St., Mt. Carmel, PA 17581-2211. (Warning: The cover of the book may be triggering, so please use caution while reading this book.)

The Believe The Children conference was recently held on June 16 -18th, 1995, in Arlington
Heights, IL, a suburb of Chicago. There were a variety of excellent workshops and display tables
at the conference. Much of the conference centered on ritual abuse and healing and the legal methods used to apprehend and try ritual abusers. One important theme expounded on several times was the need for people to unite in the fighting of ritual abuse and some hoped that some sort of umbrella organization would be developed to create a united group, to help stop ritual abuse and support those who have been ritually abused.

S.M.A.R.T. had a display table at the conference and several current and new subscribers were
met, including several survivors of alleged Masonic ritual abuse. S.M.A.R.T. wants to thank Believe the Children and Survivors and Victims Empowered (S.A.V.E.) for letting us have a display table and looks forward to attending the conference next year. For more information, write: Believe the Children, P.O. 797, Cary, Il. 60013. Editor’s note: This organization no longer exists.


The poetry found in this section is contributed by subscribers of S.M.A.R.T. Please use caution while reading this poetry, it may be triggering for you. S.M.A.R.T. is always looking for more poetry and articles. Please send all submissions with written permission to print them to S.M.A.R.T.
Please note: all accusations are alleged.

No More Shrines
N. Brick c 1995

You can’t hurt them
You can’t hurt me
You can’t kill them
You can’t kill me

‘Cause your power is gone it’s free
No more carnage and insanity

Masons burn their robes
And Satan goes away
Killers stop their killing today

So it’s over
End Insanity
No more good citizens
Going crazy

Stop the presidents
The rich and the nuts
From hurting children
And ruining their lives

Masons burn their robes
And Satan goes away
Killers stop their killing

Terror of the Moment Neil Brick c 1995

In the terror of the moment of the soul of our death
Of the cutting up of bodies and the shooting and the rest
Of the knifing and the blood and the dying and the love
And the dreamless and the angry and the tired and the mad
The stiffness and the tension that is followed by the pain
By the growing of the madness done to us by the insane

I want to kill all that I see I want to smash all that I be
The endless madness rage of savages
The bendless madness age of ravages

Flashbacks N Brick c 1995

How could I think it could be true
It hurts so much What can I do

The time I thought I had a chance
I never knew It wouldn’t last

The misty fog
My tired eyes
A shrinking heart
My parent’s lies
This so big crowd
With whips and chains
The fires’ eye
Blue robes insane

You were so pretty young and sweet
They pushed me towards you I couldn’t speak
Against an altar with painful shoves
Time after time there is no love


A sharpened knife A chant so deep
I lifted it your final sleep
And now I live in my own bars
With hidden deaths and axed out scars


This last refrain must be of hope I need to say that I can’t cope

(Author’s note: These were written as song lyrics over the last five years. They reflect different stages of recovery and ways of expressing certain feelings only, not acting them out inappropriately or destructively.)

Please note: Listing of these resources does not necessarily constitute our endorsement of them. They are for educational value only and some may be triggering.

Please also note. Some of the conferences listed may not necessarily be safe for all survivors.
S.M.A.R.T. recommends always bringing a support person to all conferences. If you are a survivor of mind control and/or ritual abuse, S.M.A.R.T.
recommends that you try to bring a support person that is familiar with mind control techniques.
As always, use caution when checking out and using any resource.

Survivors of Clergy Abuse LINKUP will be having a conference September 1-4, 1995 at the
Clarion International Hotel, Chicago, IL. Workshops will included survivor panels, support
network panels, and speakers Frank Fitzpatrick of Survivor Connections, Steven J. Wolin, M.D. author of The Resilient Self, Mike Lew, author of Victims No Longer, Tom Economus LINKUP executive director and many others.

THE LINKUP was established in 1991 in an effort to assist survivors of clergy sexual abuse and to bring the institutional churches and religions to accountability. Currently the LINKUP is the largest advocacy group of its kind with 5000 members. LINKUP is committed to the healing, prevention, education and resolution of clergy sexual abuse.

LINKUP also has a newsletter. For more information on the conference, newsletter or LINKUP write : The LINKUP, 1412 W. Argyle St. #2, Chicago, Il. 60640 or call 1-800-LINK-UP6 or
312-334-2296, FAX 312-334-2297.

Working in the Vineyard now has consultation lines for survivors. These live phone consultation lines help survivors with childhood trauma, abuse, ritual abuse, safety in healing, spiritual issues and provide information on resources. For more information, write The Grapevine (their new name) P O Box 7581, Charlotte, NC 28241

Reaching Out will be closing on July 15, 1995 and will be referring people to other organizations for education and support. The founder, Margaret Smith, author of Ritual Abuse: What it is, Why it Happens, How to Help, has decided to focus on her career and social life. Suggested referrals are : Believe the Children, 1-708-515-5432, JUSTUS 303-643-8698, The National Resource Center on Childhood Sexual Abuse 205-534-6868.

S.M.A.R.T. wants to thank Margaret Smith and Reaching Out for all of the hard work they have done to help to educate people about ritual abuse and wishes her continued success in her
personal life.

Incest Resources has updated and expanded its resource lists for 1995. Currently available
by mail order are the following:

National/International Listing of Survivor SelfHelp Groups National/International Listing of Survivor Newsletters If You’re a SirVivor: Resources for Men
Resources for Survivors Abused by Women
Ritual Abuse Resources
Multiple Personality Resources
Legal and Legislative Resources
Resources for Partners of Female and Male Survivors
Resources for Nonoffending Parents
Resources for Survivors of clergy/Professional Abuse
Resources to Address the “False Memory” Backlash

For more information send a self-addressed, stamped envelope (55 cents postage) to : Incest
Resources, Inc., 46 Pleasant St., Cambridge, Ma. 02139.

The Rhode Island Regional Conference for Survivors of Sexual Assault and Survivor Supporters will be on October 29, 1995. There will be Workshops on a variety of topics pertaining to sexual assault and sexual abuse. This is part of the “To Tell the Truth” day that occurs nationwide in
many sites around the country.

Those interested in volunteering, attending or receiving more information can write Survivor
Connections, Inc., 52 Lyndon Rd., Cranston, R.I. 02905-1121 or call 401-941-2548, FAX
401-941-2335. Survivor Connections also has a newsletter about sexual abuse, public advocacy
against sexual abuse and clergy abuse.

The International Society for the Study of Dissociation will be having an International Fall
Conference on Sept. 14-17, 1995 at the Buena Vista Palace in Lake Buena Vista, FL. This conference is for professional and resource people interested in the research, identification and treatment of dissociative disorders. A newsletter and membership is also available in the organization. To get on the mailing list you can call 708-966-4322 or write P.O. Box 468, Des Plaines, IL 600160468. Lay people are also welcome as members.

Ephesians 5:11, Inc. recently had a Leadership Conference on Ministry to Masons in Atlanta, Georgia. The conference included several speakers that have a knowledge of Freemasonry, various cults and the occult. These speakers included several former Masons and a former member of the Rainbow Girls. For more information about Ephesians 5:11, Inc. you can
write P. 0. Box 291, Fishers, Indiana 46038.

Associates in Education and Prevention in Pastoral Practice will be having a retreat for women survivors of clergy sexual abuse on both July 21-23 or September 29 October 1, 1995. The
event is not for incest survivors of clergy parents. It is for those that have experienced sexual contact with someone in a pastoral role. The retreat will be at the Wisdom House Retreat Center in Litchfield, Connecticut. For more information you can write Associates in Education and Prevention in Pastoral Practice, P.O. Box 63, 44 Main St., North Kingstown, R.I. 02852 or call 401-295-0698.