Issue 31 – March 2000

(Stop Mind control And Ritual abuse Today)
P. O Box 1295,
Easthampton, MA 01027-1295 USA

Issue 31 – March 2000

The purpose of this newsletter is to help stop secretive organizations and groups
from abusing others and to help those who allege they have been abused by such
organizations and groups.

This newsletter is not a substitute for other ways of recovering from ritual
abuse. Readers should use caution while reading this newsletter. If necessary,
make sure other support systems are available during and after reading this


The resources mentioned in this newsletter are for educational value only.
Reading the books cited may or may not help your recovery process, so use caution
when reading any book or contacting any resource mentioned in this newsletter.
Some may have a religious or other agenda that may be separate from your own
recovery process. Others may have valuable information on the Masons and other
organizations, but have triggers or be somewhat sympathetic to those
organizations.  Unless explicitly stated otherwise, the views expressed in this
newsletter constitute expressions of opinion, and readers are cautioned to form
their own opinions and draw their own conclusions by consulting a variety of
sources, including this newsletter. Resources listed, quoted and individual
articles, etc.  and their writers do not necessarily support all or any of the
views mentioned in this newsletter. Also, the views, facts  and opinions
mentioned in this newsletter are solely the opinions of the authors and are not
necessarily the opinions of this newsletter or its editor.

Copyright 2000 – All rights reserved.

No reproduction of any material without written permission from the editor and
individual authors.

99 Conference presentation tapes are now available,

Conference Information

The Third Annual Ritual Abuse, Secretive Organizations and Mind Control Conference will be held on August 5 and 6, 2000, S.M.A.R.T. will  be holding a conference at the DoubleTree Hotel near Bradley International Airport (between Hartford, CT and Springfield, MA).
Please see conference information at  our conference web page at for more information.

10% off all conference registrations received before 3/31/00.

The purpose of the conference will be to help survivors heal and to help stop
future occurrences of the above.

People have told us that last year’s conference was the safest conference they
have ever been to. For the safety of all participants we try to exclude current
members of secret organizations, current perpetrators, and/or members of
unsympathetic organizations.  We recommend always bringing a support person to all
conferences and staying with that person or another safe person at all times. For
survivors of mind control and/or ritual abuse, S.M.A.R.T. recommends that you try
to bring a support person that is familiar with mind control techniques.  We also
recommend reading the first presentation at our last conference, about conference
safety and trigger management.

Editor’s Page

This article may be triggering. Please use caution while reading.
I believe that it is sometimes normal for survivors to use certain trigger words
without thinking about it sometimes. Of course, certain words that might be
triggering for some people might not be triggering for others. It is also possible
to emphasize certain words in a sentence in a certain way, so that a different
message might be construed subliminally. Certain words might be repeated in a
sentence, to emphasize their effect. A person may start or finish their E-mail or
letter with a phrase meant consciously or subconsciously trigger or influence
someone. Certain words I have heard or realized may be triggering might include:

st*ff – to st*ff memories or feelings
h*ndle or h*ndl*ng – may connotate a person that pr*grams another
pr*gr*m – I think people know about this one.
sh*ck – may be used by those that had sh*ck treatment
b*ck – used in certain ways, meaning to “go b*ck” to the group
b*tt*flies or M*narch – may trigger  government RA/MC survivors.
o*k – triggering for certain gov’t survivors.

Here’s a way a phrase could be used to possibly trigger some survivors:
“This is the st*ff I found in d*n*al. This st*ff pulled me b*ck to my d*nial.”

Notice that the words emphasized  while reading the sentence are:
This, st*ff, found, d*nail, st*ff, b*ck, d*nial. The subconscious might construe
this to mean to st*ff memories, go into d*n*al, and go b*ck to the group. This is
only one interpretation of this.

Another thing that might happen is that a survivor will use an emotionally
upsetting or very confusing phrase at the end of their E-mail. Though the
information may be totally erroneous, it may register in the subliminal as true,
unless the reader is very aware of the technique being used.

I would be interested in hearing other’s ideas about this. I am always looking for
more information about how to protect people from MC.

Survivor Article

The following article is from Donna Carrico, Followers of Jesus Christ Ministries,
P. O. Box 4174, Evansville, In. 47724-4174, E-mail: Please use
caution while reading. It may be triggering.

December 27, 1992 – Holidays are over!

Gee, I’m glad the holidays are over. (All except for birthdays and
Anniversaries, etc.)  I’m glad I survived another year. As a survivor of sexual
molestation and emotional abuse, the holidays are always much harder for people
like myself than normal people.  You see, we are not “normal.” We don’t feel
“normal” and we have a problem acting “normal”, so we pretend!  That is how we
survive.  Down deep inside, we hurt.  We hurt because we try so hard to be happy
like everyone else seems to be, but somehow, we just don’t really feel happy!

While others are enjoying preparing for the family get-togethers, we cringe when
others ask us, “are you going to spend the holidays with your family?”  And when
we are forced to participate in the festivities, we pretend, especially if we have
not confronted our abuser…   We’re the ones who sit and watch – not speaking
very much – maybe withdrawn into the privacy of our own minds, a dangerous place
to be!  Because, you see, we can’t forget.  It is always there nagging at us –
making us feel like we are no good – not fit to be alive  so different from
everyone else in the room.  We have a tendency to cry at the drop of a hat.  We
are sometimes “snappy” at others and easily angered.  When others are happy – we
are sad.

Reach out to us  please give us a smile and a hug, not too overpowering, but
just enough to let us know you care and love us the unlovable.

And to you, the victims   stop being victims   be survivors!  Stop
giving in to pressure.  Make your own decisions.  If you don’t want to hurt others
in your family, make a decision to limit the time with your abuser, even in the
family situation.  Do something good for yourself.  Sleep in. (SMART note: some
survivors might be safer avoiding their abusers totally.)

Buy something you really want.  Do something for another victim to let them know
you understand what that person is feeling.  Spend time with your own children.
Make happy memories for them and yourself.  And remember   the holiday season will
only last for a short time – we have a whole year to get stronger and we will with
God’s help!

Survivor letters

The following are survivor letters  that SMART has permission to reprint. Please
use caution while reading them, they may be triggering.

Letter #1

When you feel like you’ve been broken into a million pieces, just remember
something that my t said to me during our last session.  (I’m paraphrasing,
but…) “You have such a beautiful, creative mind that you found a solution to an
impossible problem…a way  through the hell of your childhood…If you weren’t
multiple, you would definitely be psychotic. Nobody can go through what you went
through without some kind of creative psychological defense and remain sane.”

I believe he’s right.  I often take my frustrations out on the various “pieces”
(a.k.a. inside people) who  surface, blaming them for any of my problems.  The
truth is that they and their existence are probably the only reasons I’m alive and
sane today.

Let’s give thanks to our alters (wow, my denial muscle is strained just using that
word), even the angry and sad ones.  If it weren’t for them and their strength of
sharing our load with us, we might not be who we are today.
Gabriela Sombra

Letter #2

I’ve been pondering on my current state, and I’m recognizing (again) how  much I
miss my “alters.”  Like you said, they are the reason I  survived at all.  I feel
empty without them, but then I remember that “they”  are still parts of me,
assimilated or not.  I hadn’t planned on integrating, but when it happened it was
so lovely – the voices mixed together in an  incredible harmony, and for those
moments I knew my song in the universe.

What I have to remind myself is that, once having heard it, I must find a way to
honor it and keep it alive in my heart and soul.  I am the “I that is WE”. The
most wonderful thing that ever happened to me was to divide and hold precious in
separate compartments all of my “selves”.  I loved every
one of them, and love them still.  Loving myself as myself is the hard

I feel I dishonor the work and pain they took for me when I abuse my body with
food.  I really hate that thought, and realize what I really still hate is my
body.  The mistaken thinking is that I was betrayed by my body, but I know that
isn’t true.  I was betrayed by evil perps with evil hearts and  evil plans.  I am
blessed that I am not still part of that society, and
rejoice that I can be part of the fight against them.

I learned that the parts of me that appeared to be the most dangerous, unfeeling,
etc., were the parts that were strongest in the battle to be free.  Once they were
given voice (or other outlet) without judgement, and they could sort out the
system for themselves, every one of them chose to join the fight.  They were
strong, and yes,  even steely, wanting to  c*t up my arm also at one point.  Under
the gentle direction of my t, they  were allowed the knife to c*t, and told to do
it if they felt they had to.

Given this option, they realized they DIDN’T have to c*t after all.  I know fellow
survivors who were c*tters, but with good t’s they eventually stopped, choosing
instead to find a way to c*t the perps (symbolically).  I also learned that my
parts really are still there, and I can seek out new ways to connect and
communicate with them, letting myself be who I need to be and hear what I need to
hear.  I just keep forgetting that in the daily rush of my life.  I revel every
time someone lets another part write part or all of a post.  It’s a connection to
be cherished, regardless of the topic or choice of words, because it’s part of the
harmony that makes  each of us who we really are without the executive voice
saying “don’t do or say such things”.  Julaine


The following poem is from  a subscriber. Please use caution  while reading. It
may be triggering.


Torn and filthy. Broken with no repair. Looking out, what is this about.

Cry, no more. Torn and filthy, beaten then raped, scraped by a knife, ends your

Soul dies, and your life, becomes a lie. Gone away, far away, in the mind.
Thoughts, flashbacks, sharp as the crime. Blood pouring, red as wine. Give peace,
give some sign

Sherry Ann Mary Byron

Correction to Issue #30:

The line on page 8 “from the dates of 11/14 to 1/22/99,” should read,
“from the dates of 11/14 to 11/22/99.” We apologize for any inconvenience this may
have caused anyone.


Please note: Listing of these resources does not necessarily constitute our
endorsement of them. They are for educational value only and some may be

Please also note. Some of the conferences listed may not necessarily be safe for
all survivors. S.M.A.R.T. recommends always bringing a support person to all
conferences. If you are a survivor of mind control and/or ritual abuse, S.M.A.R.T.
recommends that you try to bring a support person that is familiar with mind
control techniques.

The pro-survivor news list is for those interested in receiving information about
resources and research to help those recovering from ritual abuse and mind
control. This list is for those that believe in the existence of recovered memory,
mind control and ritual abuse. This is not a list for survivor support or sharing
survivor stories and/or issues. Anyone with an acceptable user name will be able
to become a member, however posts will be moderated. This will be a public list
with archives. To subscribe, go to or
write, questions write

Pro-survivor list (an E-mailing list group) will help provide information for
survivors of ritual abuse and mindcontrol. This is not a list for skeptics or
those that do not believe in the existence of mind control or ritual abuse. If
interested, please  register at: /subscribe/psl After
registering, we will send you a questionnaire developed by list members to fill
out. This questionnaire is to let prospective members know about the rules and
policies of the list and to help us keep the list safe for survivors.

ACHES-MC now  has a listserv on one list. For info, write:, to subscribe, This may be triggering for some
survivors, so please use caution.

Five Day Residential Workshops for Women and Men who were sexually, physically or
emotionally abused, 3/20 – 3/24/00 Los Angeles, CA,  Safe Harbors, 2325 W. Victory
Blvd, Burbank, CA 91506

The 6th Annual Northern California Child Sexual Abuse Awareness Conference will
be on 4/8/00 at the Veterans Memorial Center, 315 14th Street, Davis, CA   The
sponsors include the Incest Survivors Speakers Bureau and California Protective
Parents Association, UC Davis Violence Prevention. Speakers will include John E.
B. Myers from McGeorge Law School and Neil Brick.
For more info: write: P O Box 15445, Sacramento, CA 95851-5445, 1-800-441-7886,

Treating the SRA/DID Patient and the Importance of Foundational Therapeutic
Elements. For Professionals only. 4/7,8,9, 2000, Doubletree Hotel in Denver, CO.
Speakers: Valerie Wolf BCSW, ACSW, Mary Jo Schneller MA.,L.C.P.C., Dr. Gregory R.
Ried, Tony Kail, Carol Koski RN.,MA,LCP., Ginny Fouts, BSW,MA,LCP., Hope Natiello.
Info:   Mary Jo Schneller, 636-305-0755.

Fifth Annual Conference for SRA and Secret Societies, St. Louis, Mo. on June 2 and
3, 2000.  Speakers to be announced later, info: Mary Jo Schneller, 636-305-0755.

Incest Awareness Foundation will be having a “to tell the truth 2000 conference”
3/25 and 3/26/00 at New York City’s School for the Physical City. For info: P O
Box 1338, NY, NY 10156 or call 1-888-547-3222.

Breaking The Cycle of Abuse, 4/5/00, 9th Annual Conference on Child Abuse at
Hamilton Campus of Bevill State Community College, Hamilton, AL. For info: (205)
921-2186, Woodfin Gregg, 409 1st St. SE, Hamilton, AL  35570

Information about the CARE Act, the Child Abuse Reform and Enforcement Act, HR
2382, “If the CARE Act is passed into law, the “incest exception” will be
eliminated and those who rape their own children will be prosecuted to the fullest
extent of the law.” or

In an article in Mother Jones by Rick Anderson, 1/4/00, “a captive group of human
guinea pigs — inmates of Washington and Oregon prisons … dozens of prisoners
between 1963 and 1973 lined up, stripped down and offered their genitalia to what
science called “reproductive radiation tests.” The inmates… learned that the
experiments, conducted by the University of Washington on behalf of the federal
government, were far riskier than they had been told… a US District Court judge
in Spokane is about to approve what attorneys say will be a historic $2.4 million
class-action settlement from UW and the Washington State Department of

“Children ‘Rented Out’ for Satanic Sex Abuse” Kevin Buckley in Milan in the
Scotsman Publications Ltd. Scotland 11/15/98 Pg. 21.  In Italy ” a group of small
children claimed their parents occasionally rent them out to paedophiles filming
satanic sex abuse orgies in a night-time cemetery.  Police in the city of Modena,
in the Emilia Romagna region, swooped  to arrest six adults, after a one-year long
investigation by social workers.”

“World’s First Satellite – Tracked Human Implant Device”
12-17-99  … today announced that it has acquired the patent rights to a
miniature digital transceiver …”Digital Angel” …. The implantable transceiver
sends and receives data and can be continuously tracked by GPS (Global Positioning
Satellite) technology….  When implanted within a body, the device is powered
electromechanically  through the movement of muscles, and it can be activated
either by the “wearer” or by the monitoring facility.”

Follow up to Issue #30 release on R. Carlson. From the “Thunder Bay Source”,
12/30/99 “A judge has denied an application to have a Thunder Bay man declared a
dangerous offender. Richard Albert Carlson was convicted of the 1992 robbery of
a city bank…. sentencing him instead to 19 years in prison. Two years were
removed from the sentence for time Carlson has already served.”

Lynne Moss-Sharman has told us that  Mr. Carlson has appealed both the conviction
and the unprecedented term of sentencing claiming that his initial defense lawyer
did not call defense witnesses forward during the bank robbery trial. It is
alleged that witnesses were not allowed in the court room during that trial nor
were they allowed to present eye witness testimony that he was not in the province
of Ontario when the bank robbery occurred. One of Canada’s most prominent and
successful defense lawyer, has agreed to act on Mr. Carlson’s behalf for the
appeal itself. Mr. Carlson is still being held on remand in the Thunder Bay
District Jail where he has been confined for almost three years.

“Frozen memories, avoided memories: difficulties in the therapeutic relationship
with the victims of torture”  Anna Sabatini Scalmati, EFPP – Rome, October 1-3,
1999 Third European Conference on Child and Adolescent Psychoanalytic

“Getting to Know Us” (MPD/DID) a 30 page self help study guide for those with MPD
by Penney S. Penney’s Solutions, 2513 S. Gessner Rd. PMB 176, Houston, TX 77063,

The Virginia Child Protection Newsletter (VCPN) has issues about MPD in children
(winter  93, volume 41) and child abuse and neglect in the military (fall   83,
volume 9) For info. write Dr. Joann Grayson, School of Psychology, MSC 7401, James
Madison University, Harrisonburg, VA 22807. Their home page is The pictures in the MPD issue may be
triggering for survivors.

OneVoice/ACAA has a newsletter with information about recovered memory (12/14/99
issue). For info, write: One Voice/ACAA, 733 15th St NW, #214, Wash, DC 20005, E-mail:

The Morris Center for Healing from Child Abuse  offers an Internet ASCA Meeting
for adult survivors of child abuse. Also, a monthly newsletter and their Survivor
to Thriver manual can be found, free of cost to download, from their web site:

The Re-experiencing Experience – Guidelines for Trauma Survivors, is available at, Sharon Wills, Ph.D., and Jean M.
Goodwin, M.D. Violence Recovery Program, University of Texas Medical Branch,
Galveston, TX 77555-0428, “many people who have survived traumatic events often
continue, even many years later, to re-experience elements of the trauma whenever
they are confronted with situations in which they have emotional and physical
feelings similar to ones experienced during the traumatic event.”

David V. Baldwin, PhD,  Eugene, Oregon USA, (541) 686-2598, has information on trauma and therapy at “The support links on this page are
primarily for those seeking information about types of trauma, trauma responses,
ways of coping with stress, treatment approaches, and related mental health

Hanging Together or Hanging Separately: Facing the Dilemma of Colleagues Charged
with Implanting False Memories (from Treating Abuse Today, May/June 1997, Vol 7
No 3,) by Judith A. Peterson, PhD, and Martha C. Dean, PhD, “…In these
increasingly litigious times, mental health professionals have taken a stance of
neutrality towards colleagues charged with implanting false memories. We suggest
a more reasoned approach: Inform ourselves about the actual allegations in these
cases and take an empirically-based pro-active stance to insure the future of our
profession.” at

“United States of America vs. Peterson, et al., FEDERAL CHARGES WERE DISMISSED!
Judith Peterson Ph.D., Richard E. Seward M.D., George Jerry Mueck, Gloria Keraga
M.D., and Sylvia Davis M.S.W. were indicted by a federal grand jury on October 29,
1997 in the Federal District Court, Houston, Texas for alleged mail and insurance

Gene Test Deaths Not Reported Promptly, NIH Was Unaware Of ‘Adverse Events’ by
Deborah Nelson and Rick Weiss, Washington Post Staff Writers, 1/31/00, Page A01
“A Harvard-affiliated hospital in Boston quietly suspended a gene therapy
experiment last summer after three of the first six patients died and a seventh
fell seriously ill, previously unreleased research records show.”

PARC-VRAMC has an article called, “Avoiding Cultlike Groups” by K. Sullivan, a
RA/MC survivor. “Helps abuse survivors to understand why they may be drawn towards
cultlike groups, gives disadvantages of joining these groups, and lists
differences between cultlike groups and healthy  groups. 6 pp. $3, PARC-VRAMC, PMB
129, 5251 Hwy 153, Hixson, TN 37343, E-mail:

This article may be triggering. Please use caution while reading.
Paedophile Rings ‘Use Satanic Rituals to Dominate Children’ 2/9/00,
“…Psychotherapist  Valerie Sinason …said of 76 patients she has seen …, 46
claimed they had seen the murder of children or adults and 16 others said they had
seen induced abortions or babies killed. “
She said there were photographs and “there was evidence that children were not
being registered on birth certificates.” She said her patients told her up to 300
people had been involved in ritual abuse.
One alleged victim of satanic abuse, Theresa …. “There are children that are
born for the purpose of sacrifice and they would be kept until their time came.
I have seen many children that were kept at this house and weren’t registered.
They would be kept in cages. There were about eight or nine cages there, hanging
up like a big bird cage. Some couldn’t talk, couldn’t walk.” At

“Treating Survivors of Satanic Abuse” by Valerie Sinason. “Thirty four chapters
by different authors covering a wide variety of subjects, including ritual abuse
of the developmentally disabled.” From

The following articles for sale can be found at, search for
“acknowledges radiation.”

“U.S. Acknowledges Radiation Killed Weapons Workers” by M. Wald, “After decades
of denials, the government is conceding that since the dawn of the atomic age,
workers making nuclear weapons have been exposed to radiation and chemicals that
have produced cancer and early death…” 1/29/00

Lab Humans by D. Kevles, “Undue Risk Secret State Experiments on Humans.” Jonathan
D. Moreno. 347 pp. New York: W. H. Freeman & Company. $24.95, 10/31/99

A survey to measure whether lawsuits against therapists based on false memory
charges have had an impact upon the therapeutic community has been initiated.  If
you have been sued based on allegations that you have implanted false  memories,
please e-mail Lynn Crook at to receive a copy of this survey form.

Dr. Rosalie Bertell and Nick Begich Project, International Human Rights Activist
Dr. Bertell and Author Nick Begich to Document Victim Allegations for Human Rights
Report  – by Cheryl Welsh

“Citizens Against Human Rights Abuse has recently found two professionals to
document the 300+ reported cases of electromagnetic harassment… Dr. Bertell is
a longtime peace activist who gathered health data from Greenham and Seneca women.
The women were nuclear protesters who were (allegedly) targeted in Sept. 1985 with
electromagnetic radiation weapons…. Nick Begich, author of “Angels Don’t Play
This Haarp” has agreed to work with Dr. Bertell on this project.” from

“Hundreds of lives ruined by ‘cult of silence’, ….WIDESPREAD sexual abuse of
boys and girls occurred in children’s residential homes in North Wales between
1974 and 1990, according to the Waterhouse tribunal’s report, Lost In Care.”  at

“The rumours – Decade of innuendo on conspiracy is ended. …public figures from
the worlds of politics and law enforcement who were rumoured to be part of the
North Wales paedophile ring… linked to allegations not only of routine rape and
child battering, … also claims of an extravagant national network of abusers in
positions of power….  a suggestion that some of the (alleged) perpetrators were
Freemasons protected by their powerful contacts in the organisation. Sir Ronald
Waterhouse, QC…said: “There was no evidence presented to the tribunal or North
Wales Police to establish that there was a wide-ranging conspiracy involving
prominent persons and others with the objective of sexual activity with children
in care.” from

“Secret, Don’t Tell – The Encyclopedia of Hypnotism” by Carla Emery is a 511 page
book about the topic. For more info. write, Acorn Hill Publishing Co., 1977
Colestin Road, Hornbrook, CA 96044, 541-482-7547, This
book may be triggering for survivors of abuse. The book also discusses US Gov’t
Mind-Control Research.

From The Salt Lake Tribune, Clergy May Have Known of Sex Abuse – 2/10/00 – AP –
LOGAN – “A man is facing sex abuse charges for allegedly fondling a boy, and
investigators are looking into allegations that three Mormon bishops were aware
of the abuse and did not report it.”