Issue 32 – May 2000

(Stop Mind control And Ritual abuse Today)
P. O Box 1295, Easthampton, MA 01027-1295 USA

Issue 32 – May 2000

The purpose of this newsletter is to help stop secretive organizations and groups from abusing others and to help those who allege they have been abused by such organizations and groups.

This newsletter is not a substitute for other ways of recovering from ritual abuse. Readers should use caution while reading this newsletter. If necessary, make sure other support systems are available during and after reading this newsletter.


The resources mentioned in this newsletter are for educational value only. Reading the books cited may or may not help your recovery process, so use caution when reading any book or contacting any resource mentioned in this newsletter. Some may have a religious or other agenda that may be separate from your own recovery process. Others may have valuable information on the Masons and other organizations, but have triggers or be somewhat sympathetic to those organizations. Unless explicitly stated otherwise, the views expressed in this newsletter constitute expressions of opinion, and readers are cautioned to form their own opinions and draw their own conclusions by consulting a variety of sources, including this newsletter. Resources listed, quoted and individual articles, etc. and their writers do not necessarily support all or any of the views mentioned in this newsletter. Also, the views, facts and opinions mentioned in this newsletter are solely the opinions of the authors and are not necessarily the opinions of this newsletter or its editor.

Copyright 2000 – All rights reserved.

No reproduction of any material without written permission from the editor and individual authors.

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Conference Information

The Third Annual Ritual Abuse, Secretive Organizations and Mind Control Conference will be held on August 5 and 6, 2000, S.M.A.R.T. will be holding a conference at the DoubleTree Hotel near Bradley International Airport (between Hartford, CT and Springfield, MA). Please see the enclosed brochure, or visit our conference web page at for more information. 10% off all conference registrations received before 4/30/00.

The purpose of the conference will be to help survivors heal and to help stop future occurrences of the above.

For the safety of all participants we try to exclude current members of secret organizations, current perpetrators, and/or members of unsympathetic organizations. We recommend always bringing a support person to all conferences and staying with that person or another safe person at all times. For survivors of mind control and/or ritual abuse, S.M.A.R.T. recommends that you try to bring a support person that is familiar with mind control techniques. We also recommend reading the first presentation at our last conference, about conference safety and trigger management.

Survivor Article

The following article is from Carol. She can be reached at: Please use caution while reading. It may be very triggering for survivors of gov=t connected abuse. Please note: all accusations are alleged.

Over the years there has been an attempt by the mainstream media, to discredit the survivors of childhood experimentation during the Cold war. Those of us who have undergone these experiments, survived and are attempting to heal from the physical and emotional impact; have been portrayed as either having these memories implanted in us by our therapists, or just plain being delusional and looking for notoriety.

As an alleged survivor of CIA programs Bluebird/Artichoke (1) and MKULTRA, I began my intense search to document some of the mind control experiments that I was made part of starting at the tender age of four. Through a series of FOIA’s to various departments of the government, I have amassed an incredible amount of material that validates my personal experiences. I have also found pictures of machines that were used in these experiments that match drawings I made during my healing process (2).

I believe that the Department Chief of the Technical Services Division of the CIA, bought my services from my grandfather in 1952. Due to the results of a psychological profile which was done while my dad was in the brig during WW2, the government determined that he was holding some very dark secrets. As John Gittinger would later prove with Wechslers of sexual psychopaths (3), so called normals have different personality patterns than people with uncontrollable urges. Consequently, they assumed our family was ripe for blackmail. That fateful day in July, it was decided that in exchange for a considerable sum of money and freedom from prosecution for allegedly making and transporting child pornography across state lines; I would become the governments’ little experiment.

I believe the CIA was looking for children who had the ability to disassociate from reality (4). They were about to determine if I would be a proper candidate for future experiments. I proved to be everything they wanted and more. Over the next twelve years, I believe I was tested, trained and used in various ways. Electroshock, drugs, hypnosis and other types of trauma were used to make me compliant and split my personality even further.

Beginning at the age of six, I believe my grandfather started training a part of me in sexual finesse. Later, they used an apartment with two way mirrors where I believe films were taken with high level government politicians. Sex with kids, wasn’t something you wanted leaked to the press, so these men had no choice than to become pawns in a larger game of chess. My psychic abilities were honed to be used for psychic assassination. I cannot tell you if I was ever successful, only that I remember being trained.

On December 17, 1999 I turned 52 years old and received 3 CDROMs from the CIA, in response to my FOIA request. Forty-eight years after I was first experimented on, I believe I found solid proof of my memories; proof that was in the government vaults of declassified documents under Subproject 136 of MKULTRA (5).One of the experimental studies the research team focused on was the exploration of the postulated abilities of a few specially gifted subjects. The document states “that in working with individual subjects, special attention will be given to disassociative states, which tend to accompany spontaneous ESP experiences. Such states can be induced and controlled to some extent with hypnosis and drugs … The data used in the study will be obtained from special groups such as psychotics, children and mediums…”

The document continues, “Learning studies will be instituted in which the subject will be rewarded or punished for his overall performance and reinforced in various ways – by being told whether he was right, by being told what the target was, with electric shock etc.” The proposal then goes on to say, “In other cases drugs and psychological tricks will be used to modify his attitudes. The experimenters will be particularly interested in disassociative states, from the abaissement de niveau mental to multiple personality in so-called mediums, and an attempt will be made to induce a number of states of this kind, using hypnosis.” The government had finally handed me the validation I had been searching for. To say my heart stopped that day, is almost true.

For some, no proof will be enough. For others, like myself, unraveling the bizarre nature of my memories has allowed me to regain control of my life. My greatest gift of healing has been to no longer operate out of fear, but from a rational, logical based reality. Choices to live, to love and to create that were taken from me through the fragmentation of my mind, can now be explored.

As I continue to heal, I will attempt through the writing and publishing of my story, to make the plight of thousands like myself known to the public. God speed your healing, too.


1. Project Bluebird/Artichoke primary purpose was the study of special interrogation techniques-primarily hypnosis and truth serums and brainwashing. See CIS-1978-S421-l Project MKULTRA, The CIA’s Program of Research in Behavioral Modification, Appendix A, pg. 66, Joint Hearing before the Select Committee on Intelligence and the Subcommittee on Health and Scientific Research of the Committee on Human Resources, United States Senate Ninety-Fifth Congress, First Session, August 3, 1977


3.Subproject 39 at Ionia State Prison, see MoriID#17436

4.Dissociative amnesia is characterized by an inability to recall important personal information, usually of a traumatic or stressful nature, that is too extensive to be explained by ordinary forgetfulness.” DSM-IV, section 300.12

5. Mori ID#17395 ESP Research, 1961 and 1962, declassified documents from CIA


The following poems are from a subscriber. Please use caution while reading. It may be triggering.

Springtime – anonymous 2000

Happy Children play among the new flowers, angels watching overhead

in the tall, wild grass of spring

Water Art – anonymous 1999

When we put our feet in a tub of water on the sidewalk,

we can make artwork

with our feet and hands

On the sidewalk we can make designs

Creative efforts are fun.

Building Bridges:

I began my life building bridges over the flames of fire.

I walk the fine line, and I am sick of crying.

The deep blue sea keeps the flames at bay.

Hoping under each bridge they will stay.

My tears have turned to the deep blue sea.

Many years of pain, I can’t understand how I stay so sane.

Building bridges every day, a tough job when the flames of fire won’t go away.

I may die along the way, but we all will someday.

The flames of fire burn me to a crisp, and my bones crack as I walk along the way.

Building bridges every day.

Until the flames take them away.

Thirty years old, and I have not lived yet.

Been too busy building, to even enjoy.

Often, I feel like a broken toy, the toy nobody wants.

My eyes cry, and the deep blue sea becomes dark and the depression rests inside of me.

The silence so thick, it makes me sick.

One more day, when the week seems too hard to bear.

When the clock has struck the hour, I begin to build at forty miles per hour.

Building fast, trying to make each bridge last.

But, I must keep the faith, and forget the past.

Building bridges every day, hoping one will last.

Right here is where I need to stay, even if all my bridges have passed away.

There is hope that lays in each new day.

I look at the clock and another day has gone away, I put my head down and cry, “Oh Lord why!”

Inside of myself I must build another wall, to protect myself,

when my next bridge falls.

I lay my head upon a soft pillow, just a lonely weeping willow.

Sherry Ann Mary Byron.

Resources and Information

Please note: Listing of these resources does not necessarily constitute our endorsement of them. They are for educational value only and some may be triggering.

Please also note. Some of the conferences listed may not necessarily be safe for all survivors. S.M.A.R.T. recommends always bringing a support person to all conferences. If you are a survivor of mind control and/or ritual abuse, S.M.A.R.T. recommends that you try to bring a support person that is familiar with mind control techniques.

Survivor Resources

The pro-survivor news list is for those interested in receiving information about resources and research to help those recovering from ritual abuse and mind control. This list is for those that believe in the existence of recovered memory, mind control and ritual abuse. This is not a list for survivor support or sharing survivor stories and/or issues. Anyone with an acceptable user name will be able to become a member. However, posts will be moderated. This will be a public list with archives. To subscribe, go to or write, questions write

Pro-survivor list (an E-mailing list group) will help provide information for survivors of ritual abuse and mindcontrol. This is not a list for skeptics or those that do not believe in the existence of mind control or ritual abuse. If interested, please register at: After registering, we will send you a questionnaire developed by list members to fill out. This questionnaire is to let prospective members know about the rules and policies of the list and to help us keep the list safe for survivors.

ACHES-MC now has a listserv on one list. For info, write:, to subscribe, This may be triggering for some survivors, so please use caution.

Survivorship and Bay Area Women Against Rape present: Honoring Your Story – Easing Your Journey, 5/6/00, Preservation Park – Oakland, California. A full-day conference for survivors of ritual abuse, sadistic sexual abuse, mind control and torture, pro-survivors, partners, friends and family members traveling beside them on the healing path Speakers: Terry Popp PhD, Judy Dragon, Vercilla Chacon LICSW, For info, etc. Survivorship, PMB 139, 3181 Mission St., San Francisco, CA 94110-4515, E-mail:

Linkup=s 8th National Healing Conference for victims of clergy sexual abuse, 9/15 – 17/00, Chicago. For info: LINKUP, 1412 W. Argyle St. #2, Chicago, IL 60640

MCS Special – Support Sexual Abuse of Males has a list of links and books for male survivors at This site also has phone numbers for survivors in the Chicago area and books for rape and incest survivors.

The following hard copy S.M.A.R.T. newsletter issues are now only 50 cents each, issues #3,4,5,6,7,8, 11,16,17,19,21,22,23,24,25, 26,28,29,30. This special ends 6/1/00 or until all stock is depleted. All other issues are still $2.00. Please see for issue contents or write us for more information.

Partnerships for Survival (a nonprofit education/support organization dedicated to improving the lives of survivors of childhood incest and sexual abuse) is having a film benefit May 21, “Little Man,” (an aging minor league baseball player returns to his hometown and comes face to face with the coach who abused him many years earlier.) Cinema Arts Centre in Huntington, with Howard Libov, film=s director and Laura A. Ahearn, Exec. Dir. of Parents for Megan=s Law, For info.: Carol Forgash at 631-265-7202, E-mail:, PFS, 353 N.Country Road, Smithtown, NY 11787

Research Articles

This may be triggering for survivors. MKULTRA Documents – “In June 1977, a rare cache of MKULTRA documents were discovered, which had escaped destruction by the CIA. The Senate Select Committee on Intelligence held a hearing on August 3, 1977, to question CIA officials on the newly-discovered documents. The complete 171-page record is included here, including testimony and dozens of MKULTRA documents on various subprojects.”

By listing this resource, I am not necessarily recommending the use of this person’s products. As always, please use caution when checking out new resources. “The Battle for Your Mind Persuasion & Brainwashing Techniques Being Used On The Public Today@ by Dick Sutphen” “On numerous occasions, the information has helped to bring public attention to the misuse of conversion tactics. Some government agencies don’t want this information generally known, for the techniques are used in armed forces basic training. Some Christian Fundamentalists, cults, and human-potential trainings would also prefer that the public remain unaware of how they are recruiting new members.@

“How and why mind programming works@ by Dick Sutphen. This article discusses brain wave states. It may be triggering. Valley of the Sun Publishing, Box 38, Malibu, CA 90265, 1-800-421-6603

Ground Lost: The False Memory/Recovered Memory Therapy Debate, by Alan Scheflin, Psychiatric Times 11/99, Vol. XVI Issue 11, ADoes repressed memory exist? Although courts and legislatures use the term repressed memory, the proper term is dissociative amnesia. This is the definition that appears in the DSM-IV, section 300.12: “Dissociative amnesia is characterized by an inability to recall important personal information, usually of a traumatic or stressful nature, that is too extensive to be explained by ordinary forgetfulness.”

AThe appearance in the DSM-IV indicates that the concept of repressed memory is generally accepted in the relevant scientific community. This satisfies courts following the Frye v United States, 293 F.1013 (1923) or Daubert v Merrell Dow Pharmaceutical, 113 S. Ct. 2786 (1993) rules regarding the admissibility of scientific testimony into evidence in court.@

And AAlthough the science is limited on this issue, the only three relevant studies conclude that repressed memories are no more and no less accurate than continuous memories (Dalenberg, 1996; Widom and Morris, 1997; Williams, 1995). Thus, courts and therapists should consider repressed memories no differently than they consider ordinary memories.@ At /p991137.html

Parental Alienation Syndrome: Frye V. Gardner in the Family Courts by Poliacoff, Ph.D., P.A., Greene, Esq., and Smith, Esq. has information about Daubert and the above. AIn this article we will challenge both the scientific and legal legitimacy of this syndrome.@ /poliacoff.htm

Quotes from writings of Gardner and responses to his theory, etc., “At the present time, the sexually abused child is generally considered to be the victim,” though the child may initiate sexual encounters by ‘seducing’ the adult.” Gardner, Richard A., Child Custody Litigation (1986), p.93. (Note: SMART does not agree with Gardner=s statements.)

“A History of the Study of MPD/DID,” “Evidence of Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly called Multiple Personality Disorder and hereafter referred to as multiple personality in deference to those who do not believe it is a disorder at all) is not a new development of the twentieth century.”

AThe case of Sybil is significant in several respects. Sybil’s psychiatrist, Cornelia Wilbur, went to great lengths to validate the accounts of abuse…. The case firmly linked multiple personality disorder with child abuse…@ The article also cites numerous resources on the topic. At

From Ritual Abuse, Ritual Crime and Healing, “Common Programs Observed in Survivors of Satanic Ritualistic Abuse” David W. Neswald, M.A. M.F.C.C. in collaboration with Catherine Gould, Ph.D. and Vicki Graham-Costain, Ph.D. The California Therapist, Sept./Oct. 1991, 47-50 Introduction….”So called cult “programs” are really no more than conditioned stimulus-response sequences consistent with basic learning theory. Such conditioning is achieved through a large variety of sophisticated and sadistic mind control strategies involving the combined application of physical pain, double-bind coercion, psychological terror, and split brain stimulation.” This article may be very triggering for survivors. You might want to read it with a support person present.

New Research Casts Doubts on False Memory Syndrome, 3/13/00, by Patricia Reaney, LONDON (Reuters) –

AResearchers at University College London claim their study of data from 236 adults with recovered memories shows many are of true past events.@

“There is now consistent evidence that ‘False Memory Syndrome’ cannot explain all, or even most, examples of recovered memories of trauma,” the British Psychological Society said…@

“To date there is no convincing evidence for a specific False Memory Syndrome” “Therapists in the majority of cases do not use aggressive, suggestive techniques to get their clients to remember things…@ from

Recommended Books on PTSD For the Non-Specialist Reader by Fred Lerner, D.L.S.@Though post-traumatic stress disorder entered the formal nomenclature of psychiatry in 1980, it is hardly a new phenomenon…. Survivors of the Holocaust, victims of natural disasters, those who have undergone torture or sexual abuse–all are susceptible to the nightmares and intrusive thoughts, the avoidance and emotional numbing that cloud the lives of many former soldiers.@

“Retractors’ Accounts As Evidence For The False Memory Syndrome Theory: Theoretical And Empirical Perspectives” by W. Hovdestad, A. Brommit, S. Ashton, & C. Vestervelt,Dept. of Psychology, Carleton Univ., Ottawa, at the Annual Convention of the Canadian Psychological Assoc., Halifax, Nova Scotia, 5/22/99. “This paper combines a critical literature review with empirical findings from a content analysis of 48 retractors’ previously published first-person accounts of their experiences. Preliminary results indicate that commonly-held ideas about women said to suffer from FMS may be mistaken.@ For reprints, contact: Wendy E. Hovdestad, Ph.D. Candidate, Dept. of Psychology, Carleton Univ., Ottawa, Ontario K1S 5B6,

“Writing for therapy helps erase effects of trauma.” by Chris Woolston – 3/16/00 “Dozens of studies have found that most people…feel happier and healthier after writing about deeply traumatic memories, says James Pennebaker, Ph.D., a professor of psychology at the University of Texas…@

AEffects of sexual abuse long-lasting, say experts@ by Meredith Goad, Blethen Maine Newspapers Inc. “Boys and girls who are sexually abused during adolescence can experience long-lasting psychological damage that leads to a variety of problems in adulthood.@ The article recommends professional help and family counseling for abuse victims to help them lead productive lives.

Violence and Childhood: How Persisting Fear Can Alter the Developing Child=s Brain – A Special ChildTrauma Academy WebSite version of: The Neurodevelopmental Impact of Violence in Childhood Bruce D. Perry, M.D., Ph.D. “Violence in the Home – Childhood is a dangerous time….Unfortunately, it is in the familial incubator that children are most frequently manipulated, coerced, degraded, inoculated with destructive beliefs and exposed to violence. The home is the most violent place in America (Straus, 1974). In 1995, the FBI reported that 27% of all violent crime involves family on family violence, 48% involved acquaintances with the violence often occurring in the home (National Incident-Based Reporting System, Uniform Crime Reporting Program, 1999). Children are often the witnesses to, or victims of, these violent crimes.” (The ChildTrauma Academy, Dept of Psych and Behavioral Sciences, Baylor College of Medicine, One Baylor Plaza, Houston, TX 77030, (713) 770-3750)

ARitual Abuse of Children@ is at This article presents both sides of the argument.

Harming the Little Ones: the Effects of Pedophilia on Children by Timothy J. Dailey, Ph.D. from : “Steven M. Mirin, M.D., medical director for the APA stated that his organization Astrongly disagrees@ with the conclusion of the Rind study Athat not all sexual contact between adult and child should be considered abusive.@ … [F]rom a psychological perspective, sex between adults and child[ren] is always abusive and exploitative because the adult always holds the power in the relationship and the child does not. Such exploitation destroys the child=s trust that the adults in his or her life will not harm [him or her].” “In their review of 45 studies, … Kendall-Tackett, …Williams …Finkelhor concur, AFears, posttraumatic stress disorder, behavior problems, sexualized behaviors, and poor self-esteem occurred most frequently among a long list of symptoms noted…@ 20 …Lisak adds to this long list of pernicious effects suffered by the survivors of child sexual abuse, which he describes as Aa legacy of childhood abuse that permeates all of the important domains of its victims= lives@ “Researchers attribute the harm inflicted on the child to a number of factors: The abuse is often confusing, frightening C and painful. Sexual activity between children and adults, by its very nature nonconsensual, interferes with normal development processes and leads to maladjustment later in life” “In a clinical study, Robert L. Johnson, M.D., found that A70% of those who had been molested (by a male or female) felt devastated immediately after the molestation incident had occurred.@ Please note: I don’t agree with some of the other statements made in the article or the organization that sponsors the page. This article may be triggering for survivors.

“The Facade of Scientific Documentation: A Case Study of Richard Ofshe’s Analysis of the Paul Ingram Case” by Karen Olio and William Cornell. APA’s journal “Psychology, Public Policy, and Law,” (1998, Vol. 4, No. 4, 1182-1197) “The case of Paul Ingram, a man who pleaded guilty to sexually abusing his daughters, has received widespread media attention. Richard Ofshe (1992, 1994) set forth a narrative of the case which included his account of an experiment to test the veracity of Ingram’s confessions and concluded that the inadvertent use of hypnosis during Ingram’s interrogation resulted in the creation of pseudomemories that convinced Ingram of his guilt. On the basis of an examination of the original source documents, the authors discusses the errors of fact, methodological flaws, and confounding factors in Ofshe’s rendering of this case of alleged child abuse. They also cite examples of the extent to which Ofshe’s imperfect narrative of this case and pseudoscientific conclusions have been uncritically accepted and repeated in the literature…” For hard copy reprints, send your mailing address to the senior author at

News Articles

A multimillion dollar civil lawsuit started Jan. 10, 2000 in Toronto against Fr. Francis Reid and Dr. Ray Leibl. The allegations include sexual abuse. For more info, E. Jane Mundy, SOS&SA (Survivors of Sexual and Spiritual Abuse), 705-841-1140,

From the New York post online, APriest’s Sex-abuse Victims Break Silence@ by Allen Salkin A…He (Dugo) and two other former students have come forward to speak about what they charge was done to them around the early 1980s by the school’s then-administrator and supervisor of altar boys@ at

Men claim abuse at B.C. (British Columbia) reform school – The four men, who were sent to Brannan Lake School as boys, are suing the B.C. government, by Rick Ouston Vancouver Sun 3/7/00 – “Four men who allege they were beaten and sexually abused at a Vancouver Island reform school for boys are today launching a lawsuit in B.C. Supreme Court against the provincial government.”

This may be triggering.

AHuman Sacrifice in the US.@ AWe have established, by this point, that human sacrifice continues to this day, on every continent inhabited by humankind.@ This site may be very triggering, contains a listing of court decisions.

S.C.A.N. Individual Microchip Technology …(Frequently Asked Questions) at: “This FAQ deals only with microchip units, referred to herein as “individual microchip devices,” which can be used to store, record, or transmit information uniquely associated with an individual item, animal, or human.”

“Stolen lives – Phony science of eugenics is gone, but effects linger,” – 3/21/00 by Bill Baskervill, AP – Lynchburg, Va. “…the horror of forced sexual sterilization under a phony science that left more than 60,000 Americans unable to have children.”

“The pseudoscience was called eugenics, … its selective breeding philosophy wreaked incalculable human damage not only in the US but also in Germany, where the Nazis’ embrace of the idea presaged the Holocaust. Virginia was at the center of the eugenics movement… sought to purify the white race under a 1924 state law that served as a model for the rest of the country. Virginia forcibly sterilized people until 1979…”

You may use the following release for the events or resource section in your newsletter. Feel free to forward this to other sympathetic organizations and publications. AThe Third Annual Ritual Abuse, Secretive Organizations and Mind Control Conference@ will be held 8/5 – 6/00 at the DoubleTree Hotel near Bradley International Airport (between Hartford, CT and Springfield, MA). The purpose of the conference will be to help survivors of ritual abuse and to help stop future occurrences of ritual abuse and mind control. The conference will be for survivors, co-survivors, helping professionals and others interested in the above topic. For the safety of all participants we try to exclude current members of secret organizations, current perpetrators, and/or members of unsympathetic organizations. We recommend always bringing a support person to all conferences and staying with that person or another safe person at all times. For survivors of mind control and/or ritual abuse, S.M.A.R.T. recommends that you try to bring a support person that is familiar with mind control techniques. We recommend reading the first presentation at our last conference at about conference safety and trigger management. For info: S.M.A.R.T., P. O Box 1295, Easthampton, MA 01027 E-mail:, conference info: