Issue 4 September 1995

The purpose of this newsletter is to help stop secretive organizations and groups from abusing others and to help those who have been allegedly abused by the Masons, Mormons, government agencies and other secretive groups.

This newsletter is not a substitute for other ways of recovering from ritual abuse. Readers should use caution while reading this newsletter. If necessary,
make sure other support systems are available during and after reading this newsletter.

The resources mentioned in this newsletter are for educational value only. Reading the books cited may or may not help your recovery process, so use caution when reading any book or contacting any resource mentioned in this newsletter. Some may have a religious or other agenda that may be separate from your own recovery process. Others may have valuable information on the Masons and other organizations, but have triggers or be somewhat sympathetic to those organizations. Resources listed, quoted and individual articles, etc. and their writers do not necessarily support all or any of the views mentioned in this newsletter. Also, the views, facts and opinions mentioned in this newsletter are solely the opinions of the authors and are not necessarily the opinions of this
newsletter or its editor.

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“The Greatest Revenge is to Heal, then turn around and Help Someone Else.” – from Working in the Vineyard (now called “The Grapevine”)

Please note: this issue has been edited for legal and grammatical reasons and for reasons of clarity.

Survivor Article

The following article originally appeared in S.O.A.R. (Survivors of Abusive Rituals) in July of 1993. The author has had several articles and letters printed in a variety of ritual abuse and anti-incest newsletters. The article has been edited by the author to update the information presented. Please note: all accusations are alleged. Please use caution while reading. This article may be triggering.

I am a survivor of at least 18 years of alleged satanic ritual abuse by several groups of Masons. The Masons are all over the country and much of the world and are an organization a secret order and I alleged that part of what they do is ritually abuse children, adults and animals.

The people in my family are to blame, as well as the Masons and our society for allowing it to happen. The Masons are an organized part of society, including politicians, judges, lawyers, policemen, rabbis, priests, doctors, etc. The Masons are all over the country, including the female chapters, which are called Eastern Star. I believe that many high ranking Masons may be involved in satanic ritual abuse.

I believe society consciously and unconsciously turn their backs on this. Our society thrives on this because it’s easier to control people who are in fear. It’s easier to manipulate and control and take advantage of people that are abused. I believe that’s what’s going on to a large extent. A lot of the backlash against ritual abuse is part of that, too. A lot of abuse is socially ordained.

I also have a type of multiple personality disorder, which makes it hard for me to be sure that when I left my family at age 18, I didn’t go back several times afterwards. I am currently 36, and dealing with the effects of SRA, mind control and brainwashing.

When did your recovery begin ?

I guess my recovery started when I left home at 18 and went to college, though I still had contact with my family on and off until a couple of years ago. I even worked for my family for a period of time in my twenties.

The bulk of my recovery work actually started in the summer of 1990. I was going through a separation from a long term relationship.

Did you remember any abuse before that time ?

No, I had always suffered total amnesia. I relocated at the same time that I got separated. Six months after the relocation, I went through addiction withdrawal for a variety of things. I was addicted to alcohol; I drank on weekends, I started to become addicted to 900 numbers phone sex and things like that. I didn’t know why. My belief system was always totally against those things, so I didn’t understand the attraction I felt. I was addicted to food. I ate to stuff my feelings. But, the biggest addiction for me was codependency on people. It was relationships I got hooked on the worst.

When you say you were addicted to codependency, what do you mean?

I was addicted to people. I had very poor internal boundaries. If someone said something to me about myself, I believed it was the truth and that was it. That’s still true to some degree, but not like it was. I had very low self-esteem. But the relationships were my drug I got the “love,” the touch and the sex I needed, and I was able to talk to someone on a regular basis. All those draws were so powerful. I wasn’t loved or nurtured as a child at all, so those were the kinds of things I went outside of myself to look for. Sometimes, that’s okay, as long as it’s not dysfunctional, as long as I’m not getting abused, or hooked to someone who definitely doesn’t want me or isn’t good for me.

So, I went to 12-step programs. I went to variety of 12-step programs. In late 1990, I was in several programs just trying to sort things out.

I started getting memories about two months into the addiction withdrawal process. They came very quickly. First there were very clear emotions, like severe anger. Unbelievable anger, like my skin was going to explode. I just felt like my whole body was going to burst, I was so hot and tense.

In December of 1990, I began to go to SIA, Survivors of Incest Anonymous. I had a very bad experience there. I just thought that you went and told your memories there, and that’s what it was about like AA (Alcoholics Anonymous), telling old drinking stories. But instead of someone taking me aside gently, and telling me that I could trigger people, I just got yelled at.

So, I was in and out of SIA for a year or two, and never really could find safe ritual abuse survivors in my area to talk to. They were very cliquey. I just couldn’t get along with most of them at all. I think ritually abused people are like anyone else with symptoms specific to ritual abuse. There are a lot of different personality types. Some RA’s are safe and some are not so safe.

In early 1993, I stopped going to 12-step programs because I didn’t see the same gains. I had been winding down since mid 1992, and I just stopped needing them. I guess my dream was to become like “Joe Normal,” and to function in the world without all the extras like therapy and 12-step groups. Twelve step groups did help me a great deal and helped me see a lot of things about myself I needed to see.

I still keep working on myself, but I don’t do as much reaching out as I did. I found that I am stronger because of that. After reading all the books, dealing with therapists, and dealing with 12step programs, I can deal with memories by writing in my journal, feeling them, and abreacting emotionally in my head. In 1995 (now), the memories are much less powerful, and I don’t have nearly as many new ones as I used to.

I want to be careful about recommending this. This isn’t for everyone. If someone is in danger of hurting themselves or someone else, they should look for outside help. But I think it really depends on the individual. The other thing is, I had to do it this way. I could not get the support systems around me to recover with others there most of the time. Most people didn’t want to hear the memories or the feelings that go with them. Even many therapists can find excuses not to listen to the hard stuff.
So I had to go my own route, and teach myself how to deal with it, which was good. I learned how to depend on myself. Fortunately, there are a lot of good publications out that deal with it. In 1990, there were very few books and publications about ritual abuse and MPD.

It’s good to be out of denial about this stuff. It’s hard but it’s good. It’s good to know who I am and to speak out publicly about it. There’s a risk in that obviously, but I have to take that risk. I can’t let this stuff continue. Hopefully, if I speak out, I’ll be safer. That’s what some people find out. Not everyone but some people. Also, the stronger I am, the less the Masons, an alleged cult, will bother me. It’s a chance I have to take to stop this. Every time I speak out, I get stronger too, I noticed that. There’s usually a period of turmoil afterwards, but then there’s an increase in strength and courage I feel.

When you originally wrote us, you talked about using some alternative therapies. Can you tell us about them?

When I began to get my first memories, I was doing some self-hypnosis. (Due to my financial situation, psychotherapy has never been a steady alternative for me.) I’ve been very fortunate in a lot of respects, considering what was done to me. I’ve never been on a psychiatric ward and I never directly tried to take my life.

I have a couple of theories why that never happened. One thing is that when I was in the cult, it was usually on the weekend or at night. I still had the daily routine to go back to, such as school and the neighborhood children. I was dysfunctional, but I was there. I think personality traits have a lot to do with it too. I’ve always been very stubborn, and that really helped me work through a lot of things.

I think that another thing that helped was that my home life was horrible also. It wasn’t as bad as the cult, but it wasn’t much better. I allege that there was a lot of abuse in my home life. There was no real nurturance or love in my home, and I may have split more if the home was cheery and had beautiful things. These are just theories, but I’m always trying to figure out why I am this way. It’s helped me a lot.

An affordable alternative to therapy was to journal, usually on my own. That way everybody inside gets to see, everybody can read it, and I can review the journals. One of my dreams is to get a small computer and try to put my journals into book form. There aren’t very many male ritual abuse survivors that have come out of denial yet.

Another alternative therapy I use is self-defense classes (specifically Karate). I’ve been doing this for three years now. I found a school where I can work really hard. I can put my work ethic to the maximum and not be put down. If I need a correction, I get it without derision. It’s a good school. I’ve felt numerous benefits from it. I’m growing in confidence every week from the classes. I’m making breakthroughs like I was in my early months in the 12-step programs. Self-defense is hard because you have to look up at someone, and it took me 4 or 5 months to do that. But if I don’t look up, I can’t see what’s going on, and I’ll get hurt. So it’s very important to look up at people, not at the floor. Most people are taught to make eye contact with others, but I was trained (as a child) to look at the floor. It was the way the cult controlled us. Just being able to walk tall and defend myself is so important. It’s a spiritual process that’s hard to explain in words. But I recommend it. It’s the first time in my life that I’ve trusted an authority figure, and feel safe in my gut about doing that.

Something else I’ve done is body work, especially massage and energy work. I think it can bring a lot of stuff really fast. It’s also a healing process. Once I had enough body work done, I learned how to use the techniques on myself. But I needed to find someone I could talk to when things came up some place I could feel safe.

Yoga is a great alternative therapy, because I could teach myself the postures. A lot of stuff comes up in yoga, but it also moves the energy through the body. I’d always suffered chronic body pain, especially in my neck and shoulders, and I used yoga to release the tension.

Also, I used herbs instead of aspirin and other drugs. But aspirin can be helpful also. And I’ve used orgone therapy, based on the work of Wilhelm Reich. It removed a lot of “negative” energy from my body and helped me “cleanse” myself.

I don’t think these are substitutes for the hard work bringing up memories and working on them. They’re not. But they’re nice adjuncts. I think it’s better than Haldol or Prozac, or other drugs, at least for me.

Have you always been opened to trying other ways of healing?

Yes. But being opened can be good and bad. I almost ended up in one cult 14 years ago, and I’ve been open to others. I’m lucky I didn’t end up in one. If I hadn’t been in a relationship with someone, I might have. But maybe not, I was starting to feel manipulated by them. My “gut” feelings were very uncomfortable.

Hard work is the key. I attended a conference in 1993 that was against cults. I got to look at mind
control and the triggers that cults use. The ritual abuse people had their own group which included people who grew up in Christian cults. Our needs are so much different that people who join cults in later life.

There are similarities in the mind control techniques used by all cults. But one difference is that people who join later usually go in for a high or to receive “love,” and people who are born into cults are trapped from day one. They never had a choice.

One of the speakers at the conference said that it was very dangerous to bring back memories too
quickly, because some people totally lost their ability to function. But many of the people who had been sadistically abused disagreed, and felt it was really important to work through the memories when they came up. But caution is important, and loss of functioning can be dangerous.

There isn’t a lot of support out there for ritual abuse survivors. So it’s really a do-it-yourself sort of thing, to take at one’s own pace.

It was important for me to find a way to get on with my life. But I realize now that it’s not a matter of getting on with it. Recovery is going to be a lifetime thing, for me at least. But it changes. I focus less on memories, and more on exposing abusers and cults. I also focus more on my career and relationships, than on memories. But I’ll never forget where I came from, and I always try to permanently stop abusers and cults from hurting others.

You sound as though you’re handling it better now.

It is better. We’re talking about 18 years of some of the most heinous crimes that can be done to a
person, and those things were done to me. They were very severe.

Do you find that your perspective has changed positively since you started doing this work?

I think I always had a sense of right and wrong. I think I grew up with that. Somehow it happened, regardless of the way I was treated. I grew up knowing what honesty was and what truth was. That way I could tell who the good people were and who the mean people were. Some people are good sometimes and bad other times. I’d been lied to so much and hurt so badly, I just wanted to know the truth to know why I was so confused and in so much pain.

Now I know why. And now I can rebuild my life and try to be happy. I feel much better about myself, and much stronger than I have ever been. I have come a long way and have a long way to go. I realize that some people can be trusted, and that I can be good. My life long goal is to have inner peace and to stop others from suffering ritual abuse and other forms of abuse.

S.M.A.R.T. wants to thank S.O.A.R. for typing the original text of the interview and for their permission to use the article in our newsletter. Responses to this interview can be sent to S.M.A.R.T.

Book Reviews

The following review is about the book, “The Deadly Deception,” written by Jim Shaw and Tom McKenney. The opinions expressed in this article are solely those of the contributor and not necessarily those of S.M.A.R.T. or any other contributors or listed organizations. Warning: Several rituals are outlined in detail, please use caution while reading this article. Please note: All accusations are alleged.

James D. Shaw was a 33rd degree, Knight Commander of the Court of Honor, Past Worshipful Master, Blue Lodge and Past Master of All Scottish Rite Bodies. In the beginning of the book, Jim Shaw discusses his early childhood, which included working after school, some alleged physical abuse, and leaving his home when he was 13. His uncle (Irvin) was a Mason, and his mother told him, “Try to be like your Uncle Irvin (her brother); he is a good man and a Mason… if you get to know him better maybe you can grow up to be a good man and a Mason like he is. ” (Page 11). After his high school graduation he met his wife and started a business. Later he joined the “Loyal Order of the Moose.” After this his mother died and he joined the ROTC.

“As I went through the basic training I noticed that many of the officers there wore Masonic rings. Toward the end of my basic training, two men from my unit were to be selected for Officers Candidate School to be trained as officers and commissioned second lieutenants. I was not selected and the two who were selected were both Masons. I thought about my four years of ROTC, my age, my experience and wondered why I had not been selected. I didn’t realize then that these men had (allegedly) been selected by Masons because they were Masons. In later years I would understand very well.” (page 17)

Then the war ended and Jim told his wife that he wanted to join the Masonic Lodge. “I had a need to belong, a need for acceptance in a group, for friends, for a family…I received a surprising revelation from Bonnie (his wife): she had been a member of the Order of the Eastern Star since age 18, and her father was a Mason.” (page 19)

From my experiences (article author), often marriages are cult ordained, two cult members may be programmed into marrying, so that their progeny will also become cult members with no problems. This may or may not be the case here.

Jim told a few friends in the Moose Lodge he was thinking of joining the Masons. “Three of my Moose brothers were also Masons. They were pleased I wanted to be one too.” (page 20)

A few days later, after asking to join the Masons, he prepared for the initiation. He was told to take off his clothes and put on pajamalike garments and one sandal on the right foot. “We were now prepared to receive the Entered Apprentice Degree, or the First Degree in Freemasonry….The Senior Deacon …asked…. “Why do you wish to become Freemasons; do you join because you believe it will help you in your business, or help you to gain influence in your community?”..the candidate is supposed to answer as if he had no selfish motivation. But it has been my experience that the vast majority of Masons enter for these very selfserving reasons.” (page 21)

Then he was blindfolded, and the blindfold is called a “hoodwink.” He was unable to see a thing, his left arm was taken out of his shirt and the left leg of his “pajama” pants was rolled up high. “A blue rope (called a “cabletow”) was tied around my neck…I began to experience real fear. I couldn’t see, didn’t know where I was , was half-naked among an unknown number of strangers, being held by a rope around my neck, and I certainly didn’t know what would happen next..I could see nothing at all. This being in total darkness produced a deepdown feeling of helplessness, and gave rise to thoughts of terrible things that might be done…Since they all (other Masonic friends) had somehow survived this, I believed I would survive it too. But I was extremely uncomfortable. ” (page 22)

Then he went to the door of the lodge hall and answered the questions with the correct prearranged answers. Then he was led into the lodge hall. The Senior Deacon said to him, “”You are received into this lodge of Entered Apprentices upon the point of a sharp instrument piercing your naked left breast, which is to teach you as this is an instrument of torture to the flesh, so the rememberance of it be to your mind and conscience, should you ever presume to reveal any of the secrets of Freemasonry unlawfully.” The “sharp instrument” was actually a compass with two sharp points brought together as one, and “sharp” it most certainly was. I really did fell pain as it was pressed into my flesh..This thing was becoming more and more serious and I was even more afraid….the Master prayed a formal, generalized prayer.. and ending with, “So mote it be.”” (page 23 24)

Book review author’s note: “So mote it be” is often used by Satanists to end their prayers. And the ceremony could be considered to be a form of mind control, using fear and disorientation to insure silence about Masonic rituals.

“There had been moments of fear when I wanted to leave, but felt trapped in what was taking place. And now, as I awkwardly stood there, blindfolded and disorientated, not knowing …(who)… may be looking at me, I began to feel a strange kind of numbness. I felt somewhat like a victim still, but really didn’t want to leave. I was beginning to feel as if I was being carried along, propelled by a force I neither knew nor understood.” (page 25)

“I heard myself saying that I was “binding myself under no less penalty than that of having my throat cut from ear to ear, my tongue torn out by its roots, and buried in the sands of the sea a cable’s length from shore, where the tide ebbs and flows twice in twentyfour hours, should I ever willingly, knowingly, or unlawfully violate this, my Entered Apprentice Oath..” (page 26)

“Then the Worshipful Master showed me how to perform the dueguard…The sign was performed by drawing the open hand from the left ear, across the throat to the right ear, as if cutting the throat across. I was still kneeling at the altar.” (page 27)

“Joseph Smith, founder of Mormonism and writer of the temple ritual, was a Mason. Much of the Mormon Temple ritual is the same as in Masonic ritual, having apparently been “borrowed” from it by Smith. ” (page 29)

When he moved to Florida, he had no trouble finishing all three of the Blue Degrees. “since I had
already paid for all three of the Blue Degrees, it wouldn’t cost me anything to take the degrees in
Florida.” (page 33)

“All non-Masons are, according to Masonic law and tradition, “profane” persons. This includes the Mason’s wife, children and parents, unless they, too, are Masons…a thing to be avoided for it would contaminate the holy and clean ones. If you are not a Mason, that is what you are to the Masonic world.” (page 41) Book review author’s note: In many cults, nonbelievers are considered unclean, fools, etc.

Jim Shaw then describes the 3rd degree (Master Mason) initiation. After being asked several questions and participating in more ceremonies, the candidate recites the oath of obligation, which includes helping fellow Masons, etc. “To all of the which, I do most sincerely promise and swear with a firm and steadfast resolution to keep and perform the same, without the least equivocation , mental reservation or selfevasion whatever, binding myself under no less a penalty than that of having my body severed in twain, my bowels taken out and burned to ashes, the ashes scattered to the four winds of heaven that there should be no more remembrance among men and Masons forever of so vile a wretch as I should be” … I had no idea of what I would be swearing to do until I was actually hearing and repeating each line. Had I been able to hear or read the oath in advance, I might not have been able to say it. ” (page 46) Book review author’s note: It is for common for cults to have a hidden agenda, only the “worthy” (or sufficiently indoctrinated) get to know the secrets of the group.

After being given the apron of the Master Mason, the candidate is returned back to the Lodge room. The story of Hiram Abiff is acted out. In Appendix D of the book, comparisons are shown between the story of Osiris, the Egyptian king and god, and the story of Hiram Abiff. The blindfold is once again put on the candidates’ eyes, so that the candidate cannot see at all. The candidate plays the role of Hiram Abiff. “He spoke to me as if I were actually Hiram Abiff, and grabbed me by the lapels.. and demanded that I give him the secret word then and there.. .as he spoke roughly to me, he was jerking me around and really roughing me up…Jubela then got even more violent … jubela struck a blow across my throat with the 24inch gauge. It hurt and startled me and I was immediately hurried a few steps further…this one really jerked me around… I therefore demand of you the secrets of a Master Mason! …Jubelo, becoming still more violent, reminded me that there was no one there to help me and threatened to
kill me..jubelo then struck a heavy blow across my chest with the square. It hurt…I was being jerked about, shoved, shouted at and hit by people I couldn’t see.. .he (Jubelum) hit me right in the middle of my forehead with a setting maul.’ I saw stars…’ fell backward onto the canvas, unconscious…” (page 49-50) After this they pretend to bury the candidate.

Jim worked his way all the way up to 32nd and 33rd degrees. At the 32nd degree, he was told,
“Morals and Dogma” …was the source book for Freemasonry. and its meaning” (page 62) (Albert Pike’s book)

“The order of the Eastern Star was conceived by a man, men organized it, men wrote the rituals, and no meeting can be held without at least three male officers present. Men, one might fairly say, control The Order of the Eastern Star, but only from the background. ” (page 73)

While joining the Shrine part of the initiation consisted of “we were placed in a large, mesh cage, and one of the Shriners climbed on top of it. He exposed a very convincing rubber penis…and hosed down all of us….We took the obligation, again with the terrible bloody consequences if we revealed any of the “secrets” ….”eyeballs pierced to the center with a sharp, three edged blade..”” (page 75)

In the 18th degree book it says “In all religions there is a basis of truth; in all there is pure morality”…”this endorsement of “all religions” included all cruel forms of paganism with mutilation and human sacrifices…and all forms of Satanism” (page 78)

“The Order of Demolay, Masonic organization for boys too young to enter the Lodge, is named for Jacques DeMolay, regarded in Masonic tradition as a hero” …”Jacques DeMolay, the medieval soldier crusader who was burned at the stake in France for betraying the faith and victimizing pilgrims in the Holy Land.” (page 86 and 84)

I want to thank Tom McKenney for his permission to use quotes from his book in this article. Readers should know that the book is Christian based. It is invaluable in its descriptions of certain Masonic rituals and the understanding of several of them. I highly recommend this book to those looking to find out more about the Masons and their rituals. The book can be ordered from Words for Living Ministries, Inc. P.O. Box 413, Marion, KY. 42064, 502-965-5060

Letters to the Editor

The following is a letter that a subscriber named Sarah sent us.

Dear Neil,

I was very disappointed when I reread your introduction to SMART more carefully and realized that you focus on (alleged) Masonic Satanic Ritual Abuse. I and many others were abused in the name of God, just as Isaac was abused by Abraham in the name of God according to the Bible (Genesis 22:119). Christians today still compartmentalize history, separately stating and then ignoring the very abusive nature of God’s order and the ritual itself, while they extol that episode and Abraham’s behavior as righteous and holy because Abraham obeyed God and proved his loyalty.

I am still alive, I survived, just as Isaac survived, at the whim of God (according to my perpetrators) but that doesn’t make the rituals and abuse I suffered Good. Yet my abusers constantly threatened to abandon me to the devil, the enemy of God, if I disobeyed just as our Catholic teachers during “normal time” the pastor in his Sunday sermon in church, the nuns in class at school, and many evangelicals today threaten those with different beliefs or independent behavior/lifestyles with loss of Heaven and damnation to Hell.

I hope you will consider expanding the scope of SMART to include all survivors of (alleged) Masonic Ritual Abuse, not just those abused in the name of Satan, Baal or some other metaphysical entity who is identified as the enemy of God. I will subscribe for one year to watch the progression of SMART, hoping it will represent me, too, as a survivor of (alleged) Masonic Ritual Abuse, or offer information on a more pertinent/broad newsletter if it cannot in the end meet my needs.

by Sarah

The following is our (S.M.A.R.T.’s) response:

Dear Sarah,

Though the introduction to S.M.A.R.T. does not specify what kind of ritual abuse the Masons may have perpetrated, (though the subscription letter does and this will be changed) the focus of the newsletter has been on Satanic Ritual abuse, partially because we have not heard of other forms of ritual abuse that the Masons have allegedly perpetrated. I am glad that you have written the newsletter about your abuse “in the name of God” and would be interested in hearing more from you and others about this type of abuse as well as other forms of alleged Masonic abuse.

Many people ritually abuse in a variety of settings and with a variety of spiritual and other systems. The newsletter is our newsletter. Articles are always welcome, especially those specifically about allegations of Masonic Ritual abuse and other connected organizations. I hope you will continue to write more articles and send more suggestions in the future, so the newsletter will be able to more adequately meet your needs.

Sincerely, SMART


Please note: Listing of these resources does not necessarily constitute our endorsement of them. They are for educational value only and some may be triggering.

Please also note. Some of the conferences listed may not necessarily be safe for all survivors. S.M.A.R.T. recommends always bringing a support person to all conferences. If you are a survivor of mind control and/or ritual abuse, S.M.A.R.T. recommends that you try to bring a support person that is familiar with mind control techniques.

As always, use caution when checking out and using any resource.

The Cutting Edge is a newsletter for women living with SelfInflicted Violence and their friends. It contains articles, book reviews, poetry and art work about self inflicted violence. For more information, you can write: The Cutting Edge, P.O. Box 20819, Cleveland, Oh. 44120.

Survivors of Educator Sexual Abuse and Misconduct Emerge, (SESAME), is a support and informational network for survivors, family members, and all caring people concerned about the sexual and emotional well being of students in our nation’s schools. Contact : SESAME, % Mary Ann Werner, 681 RT. 7A, Copake, N.Y. 12516., 518-329-1265.

VOICES (Victims of Incest Can Emerge Survivors) presents “Embracing the Journey: Its Challenges and Its Gifts, The 13th International Conference” for Survivors, professionals and ProSurvivors at the Adam’s Mark Hotel, Indianapolis, In., November 3-5, 1995, featuring Marilyn Van Derbur, incest survivor and former Miss America. For more information, write VOICES in Action, P.O. Box 148309, Chicago, Il. 60614 or call 1800-7VOICE-8, or 312-327-1500.

Survivorship Storm Watch, coping with patterns of Revictimization and Retraumatization, a Ritual Abuse Seminar for professionals, Survivors and Partners, featuring Margot Silk Forrest (founder of the Healing Woman newsletter), will be held at the John F. Kennedy university in Orinda, California on September 30, 1995. For more information, write Survivorship, 3181 Mission St. #139, San Francisco, Ca. 941104515 or call Robin or Caryn at 707-279-1209.

Satanic Ritual Abuse and Secret Societies is an 88 minute video tape researched by David Carrico (Followers of Jesus Christ). The existence of Satanic Ritual Abuse and allegations of Masonic Ritual Abuse are fully supported by facts, dates and court convictions. The following aspects are covered: Definition of Satanic Ritual Abuse, proof of continued existence of ritual abuse, an examination of the False Memory “Syndrome” and the backgrounds of its founders, the roots of SRA are examined and traced back to the Babylonian mystery religions. Connections between the Masons and modern Satanic groups and the similarities between Masonic ritual and the rites of Lucifer are discussed. The alleged sexual ritual abuse of children in a Masonic context is also discussed. The video is Christian based with selections from the Bible.

S.M.A.R.T. is nonsectarian and has no religious affiliation. We highly recommend this video, the information in this video is invaluable in the fight against ritual abuse, the Masons and their alleged ritual abuse and the backlash against the incest movement. It is very well researched and well done. Order from: Followers of Jesus Christ, P O Box 4174, Evansville, IN 47724

“Healing the Whole: The Diary of an Incest Survivor” by Yvette M. Pennacchia, Cassell PLC, 1994 ISBN: 0-304331112 is a recently released book written in diary form by a survivor of incest. It can be ordered from InBook, P 0 Box 12061, East Haven, CT. 06512, 18002430138.

The National Organization on Male Sexual Victimization and The Ohio Coalition on Male Survivor Issues in conjunction with Treating Abuse Today announce The Sixth World Interdisciplinary Conference on Male Sexual Victimization which will be held October 57, 1995 at the Greater Columbus Convention Center in Columbus, Oh.

The conference will focus on the recognition, appreciation and inclusion of diversity in the Male
Survivor movement, both diversity of life experience among survivors and professionals and diversity of approaches to growth, healing and prevention. For more information, write Learning Alliance, 324 Lafayette, NY, NY 10012 or FAX 2122748712

Incest Survivors Anonymous is an international selfhelp recovery program for men, women and teens. It is based on the 12 steps and 12 traditions of Alcoholics Anonymous adapted to incest with permission of A.A. World Service New York. For and by survivors and their personal
prosurvivors, only. No perpetrators or Satanists. For I.S.A. meetings, information and literature, write I.S.A. P. 0. Box 17245 Long Beach, Ca. 908077245, and send a S.A.S.E. Please state if you are a survivor or other status.

Songs of Life, Love and Ritual Abuse is a 20 minute tape of songs written by a Masonic ritual abuse survivor. Two songs are about alleged Masonic ritual abuse. The tape was digitally recorded and mixed. The style is primarily folk/rock and it is primarily a solo effort. To order write S.M.A.R.T. and send $3.50 + $1.50 S & H (.50 additional S & H for each extra tape, US funds only please.)

Vision’s Gateway NewsletterJournal is a newsletter about Ritual Abuse that is printed four times a year. Issue number 3 contains an article about Masonic Ritual abuse. The newsletter helps promote community awareness about ritual abuse and is an excellent resource letter for those looking for information about ritual abuse. Vision’s Gateway’s address is P.O. Box 7208, Olympia, WA. 985077208. Subscriptions are available for $24 a year regular rate (4 issues). Therapist’s rate is $30. Please note: to the best of our knowledge, this newsletter no longer exists.

Survivors of Clergy Abuse LINKUP will be having a conference September 1 4, 1995 at the Clarion International Hotel, Rosemont, IL Workshops will included survivor panels, support
network panels, and speakers Frank Fitzpatrick of Survivor Connections, Steven J. Wolin, M.D. author of The Resilient Self, Mike Lew, author of Victims No Longer, Tom Economus LINKUP executive director and many others.

THE LINKUP was established in 1991 in an effort to assist survivors of clergy sexual abuse and to bring the institutional churches and religions to accountability. Currently the LINKUP is the largest advocacy group of its kind with 5000 members. LINKUP is committed to the healing, prevention, education and resolution of clergy sexual abuse.

LINKUP also has a newsletter. For more information on the conference, newsletter or LINKUP write: The LINKUP, 1412 W. Argyle St. #2, Chicago, Il. 60640 or call 1800LINKUP6 or 3123342296, FAX 3123342297. SMART plans on being at this conference. We hope to have literature available at this conference. If you live in the Chicago area, feel free to stop in and see us.

The Rhode Island Regional Conference for Survivors of Sexual Assault and Survivor Supporters will be on October 29, 1995. There will be Workshops on a variety of topics pertaining to sexual assault and sexual abuse. This is part of the “To Tell the Truth” day that occurs nationwide in many sites around the country.

Those interested in volunteering, attending or receiving more information can write Survivor
Connections, Inc. , 52 Lyndon Rd., Cranston, R.I. 02905-1121 or call 401-941-2548, FAX 401-
941-2335. Survivor Connections also has a newsletter about sexual abuse, public advocacy against sexual abuse and clergy abuse.

S.M. A. R. T. is looking for additional articles about alleged Masonic abuse (including affiliated
organizations) and ritual abuse. We are also looking for poetry, personal accounts and letters
to publish in this newsletter, especially those relating to the Masons and related groups. We are
also looking for events and resources to list. If you have any questions or things you’d like to have
published please send them with your signed written permission to S M A R T. Good luck in your recovery process and/or your process of helping others heal.