How healing from ritual abuse and mind control works
This transcript is from a presentation by Neil Brick at The Eighth Annual Ritual Abuse, Secretive Organizations and Mind Control Conference, August 5 – 7, 2005 at the DoubleTree Hotel in Windsor Locks, CT. Some of the topics discussed may be heavy for survivors. Survivors may want to read this with a support person or therapist. The conference is educational and not intended as therapy or treatment. All accusations are alleged. Our providing the information below does not necessarily constitute our endorsement of it.
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Neil Brick is a survivor of alleged Masonic Ritual Abuse and MK-ULTRA. He is the editor of S.M.A.R.T. – A Ritual Abuse Newsletter. He has published numerous articles on ritual abuse. His topic is: “How healing from ritual abuse and mind control works.” The address for S.M.A.R.T. is P O Box 1295, Easthampton, MA 01027 USA, E-mail: smartnews@aol.com Thanks.
Healing is different for everyone. What I say today may not fit you at all. Or you may feel that parts of it fit you. With that said, I wanted to discuss what I believe are some of the major components necessary for healing from ritual abuse and mind control.
1 ) A life change – I believe that any sort of major cognitive change is precipitated by a life change of some sort. This change could be a geographic move, relationship change, job change or perhaps a change in friends or sobriety from an addiction. This change could also be a spiritual one, perhaps joining a meditation group or looking at other belief systems.
In my life, I needed a change of job, geographics, relationships and sobriety from addictions before I was able to get to the memories that were blocked.
2) Working through major emotional feelings – By being able to move through blocked emotions, I believe one can work through a variety of memories and feelings that may be stopping them from growing and changing. Blocked memories will often hold a lot of blocked emotions. These blocked emotions may help hold the programming in place in one’s psyche. Survivors of RA and MC will often either be very labile (emotions changing often) or have flat affect.
In my case, I was very labile when I was younger. I had severe emotional mood swings in college. As I got older in my 20’s, I learned how to block these emotions and became very flat in affect and expression. This help me survive in the world, pre-recovery, to hide my personality changes and to also not use inappropriate emotions in certain situations. Recovery for me entailed learning how to feel appropriately in certain situation, as well as how to express my emotions.
3) Moving away from triggering situations – Triggering situations are situations where one’s programming is being triggered or set off either purposefully or accidentally by those still in the cult or group where the abuse occurred. An example is: The color red may be a trigger for many ritual abuse survivors. This color could have been paired with certain cult rituals or internal alters (personality parts) that may have had certain jobs in the cult. This color may be used to call certain personality parts to the front to take over the individual survivor’s personality system.
Moving away from triggering situations may necessitate a major life change, like the ones we discussed before. If a survivor is married to cult members, or is in contact with cult members that are family members or friends, a survivor may need to cut all personal ties in order to stop being re-triggered and accessed. This way the survivor’s programming won’t be continually being accessed and they will be able to start the healing process.
In my case, I needed to make a variety of major life changes before I was able to break free from much of the cult programming.
4) Sobriety from addictions – This one was also mentioned before, as a major life change. However, I feel that this one is a crucial one in order to start exploring one’s Id (or subconscious) and one’s psyche (mind). Once people stop using an addictive substance, like alcohol, drugs, food, codependent relationships or sex, a person’s mind will clear up and feelings will often come up very quickly. These feelings were previously blocked by the use of the addictive substance. Once the feelings come up, the memories that are connected to these feelings may also come up.
In my case, once I stopped using a variety of addictive substances and patterns, the feelings and memories came up very quickly for me. This is when I was able to make real progress in my recovery.
5) Being open to what comes up – I believe that this is also important in order to heal from RA and MC. Once a person is on the path to recovery, then they need to have faith in the memories and feelings that are coming up. I tried never to judge or block my memories as they came up. I always accepted whatever came up as possibly true. The abreactions I had were proof to me that I was a survivor of RA and MC. I was having all sorts of memories and feelings that I had never heard of or seen before. The emotional components that were connected to these memories were very strong.
6) Becoming a better person – I believe that this will happen naturally as a survivor continually works through their programming and feelings. I noticed that the more I worked my recovery and worked through my feelings and memories, the more I was able to help people around me. I also found that I accidentally hurt others around me less as well. I also learned my limits in helping others also. I realized that I could only do so much, this made my interactions with others better and more genuine. Becoming a better person is part of many spiritual paths.
7) Following the path given to us to heal – This is the last component I consider crucial for healing from RA and MC. I believe that certain things will be presented to us along the way that we can use to heal. Some may be believe in a higher power or that some force in the universe is helping us grow, change and heal. I definitely believe that the things that come into our lives, we can use to grow. Some of these things we may need to reject and say that we don’t want these things in our lives, as they are no longer helpful to us. Other things we may need to embrace and learn to use in our lives. For me, I needed to learn how to push dysfunctional chaos and hatred out of my life. I needed to look for situations that were healthier for me. I have begun to learn how to do this.
These seven components obviously are interconnected as well. Learning how they connect can be part of the learning and recovery experience.
I wanted to open up the rest of this session to questions and discussion of the topic of healing from RA and MC. Thanks.