My story intertwined with documentation

Carol Rutz’ ’01 Conference Presentation

The Fourth Annual Ritual Abuse, Secretive Organizations and Mind Control Conference -2001

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This transcript is from a presentation by Carol Rutz at The Fourth Annual Ritual Abuse, Secretive Organizations and Mind Control Conference, August 10 – 12, 2001 at the DoubleTree Hotel in Windsor Locks, CT. Some of the topics discussed may be triggering. The conference is educational and not intended as therapy or treatment. All accusations are alleged. Our providing the information below does not necessarily constitute our endorsement of it.

Carol Rutz is a survivor of Mind Control experimentation. She has attempted to document through research and FOIA’s material that validates her personal experiences as well as other survivors. She is presenting these facts in a book aimed at not only survivors, but health professionals and the general public. Her topic is: “My story intertwined with documentation.”

First Slide Joel 1: 2, 3 “Hear this, you elders; listen, all who live in the land. Has anything like this ever happened in your days or in the days of your forefathers? Tell it to your children, and let your children tell it to their children, and their children to the next generation.”

I would like to thank Neil for inviting me to participate in this conference and also the cosponsors, Mothers Against Sexual Abuse, PARC-VRAMC, Inc., ACHES-MC and Many Voices. I feel very humbled to be addressing so many of my fellow survivors as well as other interested parties here in attendance. All statements that are not documented with source material available in my book are alleged. Neil, I hope this will suffice, as I know I will forget to continually say alleged while I’m speaking.

I don’t expect to be able to give you all the documentation that I’ve found in the time I have today to speak with you. I feel it is really important that each of you knows that the 3 cd’s with the Bluebird/Artichoke and MKULTRA Documents are jammed packed with lots of good info, but you have to wade through tedious hours of accounting notes to get to one savory tidbit. I have only gone through a fraction of these documents and it is my hope that some type of concerted effort could be made by survivors to systematically go through and find the pertinent docs that will enhance our case as survivors. If you aren’t interested in ordering these from the CIA then you can got to

They have most of them posted for your viewing online. I have brought some hard copies of documents and they will be at my table for viewing for those interested.

One other thing I would like to say about FOIA requests and denials. The guidelines for the release of information of records thru the FOIA states:

“In processing a request, the Agency shall decline to confirm or deny the existence or nonexistence of any responsive records whenever the fact of their existence or nonexistence is itself classified under Executive Order 12958 or revealing of intelligence sources and methods protected pursuant to section 103 ©(5) of the National Security Act of 1947. So they can deny that any records exist on you or any other matter if they are still classified.

I’d like to start my presentation today by telling you a bit about my background. I have DID. I am a multiple. I was a baby in diapers when the first sexual abuse started. It began with my father and continued on with his father. It was at the age of two that my mind felt the need to create my first alter in order to handle the trauma from the continued abuse by him and other family members. Before my third birthday the trauma from an initiation and ritual performed by my grandfather in the presence of a large number of other people forced another alter to be created. From that point on it seemed to be standard operating procedure. Disassociation had become a way of life for me to cope with tragedy. I had no control over it. It was my mind’s way of allowing me to stay sane when everything around me was totally insane and out of control

To stay sane in an insane world, I continued to create new personas to cope with severe and prolonged abuse. It was also the means by which the CIA chose to assure my silence and create personas to use in their experiments. These alters or personas were created by our government during systematic experiments aimed at breaking my mind and creating a compliant slave.

Slide Two

The systematic destruction of Ego and Free Will

Power was obtained over Children and used to destroy their spiritual and emotional growth. This was done so these men might defend and preserve their own sick selves and their notions of right and wrong. Fragmentation of these Children’s minds was accomplished by using: Torture, Humiliation, Degradation, Guilt and Emotional and sexual abuse. Experiments were laced with drugs, radiation, hypnosis, ECT and in some cases stereotaxic equipment.

A CIA document from January 1950 on Drugs and Electricity says,

“Research work on the use of electric shock and the encephalograph in interrogation. Particular emphasis on the detection of prior use of electric shock and the ‘guaranteed amnesia’ resulting from it.”

In another document from 1952 a certain doctor is being asked,

“Have you ever had any experience with drugs? A: Yes, many times. I worked with doctors using Sodium Amytal and Pentathol and have obtained hypnotic control after the drugs were used. In fact, many times the drugs were used for the purpose of obtaining hypnotic control.”

Another document from 1952 talks about Sodium Amytal and Pentathol being effective truth drugs if administered under competent medical direction.

Slide 3

“Precautions must be taken not only to protect operations from exposure to enemy forces but also to conceal these activities from the American public in general. The knowledge that the Agency is engaging in unethical and illicit activities would have serious repercussions in political and diplomatic circles and would be detrimental to the accomplishment of its mission.”

CIA Inspector General in assessing the benefits of Mind Control Research

A declassified document from 1957 talks about the difficulty they have had in obtaining expert services and facilities to conduct their tests and experiments. It says,

“Some of the activities are considered to be professionally unethical and in some instances border on the illegal. These difficulties have not been entirely surmounted but good progress is being made.”

My alters hid this knowledge from me until ten years ago when I first started having flashbacks and memories. I was frightened, scared, and totally horrified when this began. I had only been married for 4 years to this gentle soul who has supported me through this very difficult healing journey. I had previously been married to a physically, emotionally, and sexually abusive man since I was 17. He was not unlike my dad. After 18 years and three children, I was able to finally break free. A high profile management job, which consumed most of my time and energy, left little time for anything other than survival. It was only after I felt safe and accepted in my marriage to Steve that my unconscious allowed the long held secrets to surface.

The nature of my memories included incest, ritual abuse, and government experimentation. I want to make clear that many of these memories and my multiplicity became known to me before I ever started therapy. I hate it that the FMSF’ers have such a field day with all of us. Having been threatened by my dad to be institutionalized if I ever revealed what was being done to me, the last thing I wanted to do was seek help in dealing with what I was sure would get me locked up and deemed crazy. How could I have people living inside my body? How could many of the things I remembered have happened and how could I possibly understand it, let alone share it with a stranger? It seemed I had no choice if I was to understand and cope with life as a multiple to seek help.

I was so sure, that I could rush this healing experience. I don’t know that I could have stayed for the endurance if I would have known how long it really takes to heal the fragmentation of a mind. I’m certainly glad I did and it has been more than worth the time, money and tears, so anyone who is DID and fairly new to this healing process, give yourself time and ask for Help, and don’t stop asking.

Over time, while living through the abreactions, memories, flashbacks etc, I began to feel and understand the true nature of what had happened to me. I am still working at owning it personally, as this is the only path I have found to integrate each separate part and free myself from the fear that had plagued me my entire life. It’s really horrendously painful work, and I applaud every single survivor in this room who faces this challenge every day. Only by taking this one step at a time, can sanity be preserved. The healing entails taking all of this horror back in and realizing it was really “Me”. Not 50 or 150 different people, as it seems when you are fragmented, but Me, one person. One of the things that helps me now is to look at pictures of myself at different ages when the abuse was going on. I’d like to briefly flash these on the screen so that each survivor in the audience might also think of yourself in terms of a small innocent child, not worthy of the ugliness perpetrated against you.

Slide 4

The middle picture at age 4 was taken in the fall after I believe I was taken by Allen Dulles and Sidney Gottlieb for experiments for the first time.

Journaling, drawing and painting when I first became coconscious was a way I allowed my alters to speak. I realized later in my quest for the truth, much of this same material would validate my personal experiences.

I think it is important to document for you the clear pattern of experiments performed on children before I go into my own personal experience.

Slide 5-10

Fernald School-Young male children who were institutionalized at the Fernald School in Massachusetts were fed radioactive cereal in the 1940s and 1950s.

Willowbrook State School-Dr. Saul Krugman of New York University conducted studies of hepatitis during the 1950s and 1960s on the severely mentally retarded .

Nasal Radium Irradiation-1948-54. 582 third graders in the Baltimore public schools.

Vanderbilt University Hospital – 1945-49 at Prenatal Clinic – 829 pregnant women given a “cocktail ” laced with radioactive iron.

D.C. Children’s Center in Laurel in a section called the District Training School in the 60’s-Retarded children were used as human guinea pigs for both private industry and the government.

University of Tennessee Memphis – 1954 seven male infants between 2 and 3 days old were injected intravenously with I-131.

Harper Hospital in Detroit – 1954 sixty-five premature infants included in a study of the uptake of iodine-131. Seven full-term infants were used for the control group.

Clinton Elementary school in Minneapolis 1953. Spraying of microorganisms either alone or in combination with the zinc cadmium sulfide by the Army.

Los Alamos Scientific Laboratory – 1959 sixty-six subjects including one pregnant woman and four children evaluated for the retention of radioactive Iron 59.

University of Nebraska College of Medicine 1960 Twenty-eight infants ingested radioactive iodine through a gastric tube. In 1963 twenty-five infants at the University of Iowa in Iowa City, who were less than 36 hours old, had radioiodine administered either orally or by intramuscular injection.

University of Rochester-1963 cows fed iodine 131 and then milk given to people ranging in age from six years to 50 years, seven were less than 21 years old.

In the 60’s and 70’s Stereotaxic Surgery–Alan Scheflin reports on some of the children who received this brain surgery. He says one young boy would sneak away from home, and crawl underneath an automobile in order to smell the oil. Two groups were as young as two and four years old when the surgery took place for “violent behavior.”

I will be expounding on this with pictures a little later, but it is brain surgery that enables a surgeon to destroy brain cells if he so desires. As you can see, there was a clear pattern of using innocent children who had no way of protecting themselves.

Slide 10

Karen Coleman Wiltshire–John Hopkins Harriet Lane Home for Invalid Children-1961 through 1970

Norwegian children-Suit against the CIA, the Norwegian Army and pharmaceutical companies for using 10 war children in 50s and 60s’ in experiments with LSD and Mescaline.

Karen Coleman Wiltshire attended several public forums with the Department of Defense as a representative of ACHES and was outspoken on behalf of survivors on each occasion. She too, was one of the very few who was able to obtain her medical files from John Hopkins proving her experimentation.

Karen’s father worked for the Applied Physics Lab at Johns Hopkins. She obtained her files through sheer persistence, help from the almighty, and a mistake by a clerk who was not supposed to give the information out. Karen said they transported her to Washington, Maryland and Virginia, to military and government labs by private ambulances, military cars, and yellow school buses. She alleged her experiments took place from 1961 through 1970. Karen related to me that she was kept in the Harriet Lane Home for Invalid Children at John Hopkins where there were wards of children. Her parents had been told she was being treated for a heart defect. She said when they would come to visit; she would be put in a private room with her belongings in order for it to appear as though she had been there all along. When her parents left, they returned her to the ward where she said she believed they did LSD, ECT, and other strange experiments. One of these she explained was to be trained to eliminate emotions and feelings by using assorted torture and other techniques. This sounds very much like the mind control technique I believe was used on me by the CIA and other branches of the government.

Karen was responsible for spurring me on to obtain information through FOIA requests that would help me validate my memories. She was always banging on doors, persistent to get the truth out, especially when she found out there were so many other kids who were used as human guinea pigs. The Department of Energy had told her she was the only one, but she said that Pentagon sources had personally told her they “didn’t want our stories out at any cost. The plan was to pay off a few token victims and blow the rest off.” Karen did not live to see any of us receive validation or vindication.

On April 5, 1999 Karen made a presentation on behalf of ACHES entitled ETHICS before the National Institute of Health’s’ Bioethics Group. She died on April 23, 1999 after doing exhaustive investigation of DOD experiments on human beings. I am sure more child survivors like Karen will begin coming forward once the public becomes aware of these abuses.

Now that I have established the clear pattern of children being used as human guinea pigs, I would like to share with you my own search for the truth. As an alleged survivor of CIA programs Bluebird/Artichoke and MKULTRA, I began my intense search to document some of the mind control experiments that I became part of, starting at the tender age of four. The CIA bought my services from my grandfather in 1952. Over the next twelve years, I was tested, trained, and used in various ways. Electroshock, drugs, hypnosis, sensory deprivation, and other insidious types of trauma were used to make me compliant and split my personality. Because I had already become dissociative from the incest and ritual abuse, our government decided they may be able to take it a step further and actually create alters of their own. They in fact did just that. I became a human experiment– part of their search for a way to take control of the mind and create alters to do their bidding–Manchurian Candidates is an appropriate term.

Dr. Colin Ross documents in Bluebird: Deliberate Creation of Multiple Personality by Psychiatrists, those doctors who were working under MKULTRA government contracts for the specific purposes of breaking the mind and rebuilding it.

The alters created within me for use by our government were of several different types. One was trained to use the ” RED FIRE.” The Red Fire was the energy stored away during trauma, the hatred, and fear that accumulated over the years each time I was assaulted, experimented on etc. I was taught how to access this energy and use it to psychically kill. One child alter was trained sexually in order to compromise men of power so they could be blackmailed at a later date. Another was created and told it was a robot to store information. Many survivors speak of similar types of programming.

Through a series of FOIA requests to various departments of the government, and exhaustive research, I have amassed an incredible amount of material that I feel validates my personal experiences.

In a document dated November 21, 1951 approximately 7 months before I believe I was first experimented on, the CIA proposed a three to five year outside research project to search for exceptionally gifted individuals who could obtain both perfect and scattered ESP test performance. Since I displayed psychic abilities, they trained an alter to use these abilities in a way they hoped would benefit the agency.

The CIA made sure that this project would never be made known. The document says,

“It would be necessary to be exceedingly careful about thorough cloaking of the undertaking. I would not want anyone here in the deleted except deleted and myself to know about it . . .. Funds necessary for the support of the work would carry no identification and raise no questions.”

Here we clearly see the compartmentalization and secrecy used for these experiments.

It is my belief, that these studies done in secrecy for ten years became the foundation for the ESP experiments under MKULTRA Subproject 136.

One of the documents specifically stated that experimental studies of the postulated abilities of a few specially gifted subjects would be conducted. It also says,

“That in working with individual subjects, special attention will be given to disassociative states which tend to accompany spontaneous ESP experiences. Such states can be induced and controlled to some extent with hypnosis and drugs . . . The data used in the study will be obtained from special groups such as psychotics, children and mediums . . .”

The document continues, “Learning studies will be instituted in which the subject will be rewarded or punished for his overall performance and reinforced in various ways-by being told whether he was right, by being told what the target was, with electric shock etc.” The proposal then goes on to say, “In other cases drugs and psychological tricks will be used to modify his attitudes. The experimenters will be particularly interested in disassociative states, from the abaissement de niveau mental, to multiple personality in so-called mediums; and an attempt will be made to induce a number of states of this kind, using hypnosis.”

My heart practically stood still the day that I read this. It described perfectly what I had remembered and journaled when I was taken in 1952 at four years of age from my grandfathers home, and delivered to Sidney Gottlieb of the CIA, Dr. Noe and Dr. Black. Something significant to note here is the following statement taken from a declassified CIA Document dated 11/26/51, “Every effort should be made never to identify members of the Artichoke team by their true names in the presence of or in the hearing of the subject. Artichoke team members will use fictitious names in carrying out the Artichoke techniques.”

So many of us have remembered the same alias’s being used, and now we have a clear reason for it. ORDERS FROM HEADQUARTERS.

A Dr. Noe was named in a declassified document from Edgewood Arsenal, MD. Dr. Noe coauthored a publication for the chemical Corps in 1949 entitled “Some relationships of structure to biological activity in the nitrogen mustards and related compounds.” I am still waiting on an appeal of a FOIA request to obtain more information on Dr. Noe.

These doctors, and I use that term loosely, were looking for children who had the ability to disassociate from reality for projects Artichoke and Bluebird. This was obviously continued under several MKULTRA projects, but a document from MKULTRA Subproject 43 which was a combination of drugs, hypnosis and sensory deprivation says,

“Experiments involving altered personality function as a result of environmental manipulation (chiefly sensory isolation) have yielded promising leads in terms of suggestibility and the production of trance-like states. There is reason to believe that environmental manipulations can affect the tendencies for dissociative phenomena.”

Sensory Deprivation wasn’t used on me till later in my training, the first few days they used truth serum as well as electric shock to identify the alters currently residing within me. They then proceeded to create new alters for their own nefarious purposes. I believe Sidney Gottlieb used hypnosis, and electric shock to open my mind and find my baby part. He then bonded me to him, saying “I am your mammer and your papper. You love only me, and I am the only one who loves you. I feed you and hold you, and you are mine alone.”

Our Baby part grew to love and depend on “Daddy Sid” as her only source of love and nourishment. He even bottle fed me to reinforce this. From that day forward, a deep bonding took place with Dr Sidney Gottlieb, Directorate of Operations of the Technical Services Staff (TSS) of CIA in charge of their behavioral program through MKULTRA. No matter what experiment he was to make me a part of, I would love and remain loyal to the man who my baby alter considered sole supplier of the basics of life, food and love. When he died in 1999, my programming immediately started to deteriorate. It was very difficult to manage and allow the opposing feelings of love and hate for this man. Part of me loved him as a father and other parts of me felt hatred and contempt.

Another very poignant declassified document from 1954 says,

Slide 11

“At all times when subjects were being hypnotized CD representative (Dr. Gottlieb or Major deleted) was present. His presence served a double purpose of reassurance to the subject and observation of technique for possible later exploitation.”

In a memo dated six months before I was first used in experiments, Bluebird states

“Practical–Not theoretical research be conducted and carried out. The nature of this research to include 20 specific problems.”

Slide 12

Here are a Few

2. Can we in a matter of an hour, two hours, one day, etc., induce an H condition in an unwilling subject to such an extent that he will perform an act for our benefit? (Long range).

4. Could we seize a subject and in the space of an hour or two by post-H control have him crash an airplane, wreck a train, etc.? (Short, immediate activity)

5. Can we by SI and H techniques force a subject (unwilling or otherwise) to travel long distances, commit specified acts and return to us or bring documents or materials? Can a person acting under post-H control successfully travel long distances?

7. Can we guarantee total amnesia under any and all conditions?

8. Can we “alter” a person’s Personality? How long will it hold?

10. Can we detect SI and H by use of SI and H (regression)?

12. Can we devise a system for making unwilling subjects into willing agents and then transfer that control to untrained agency agents in the field by use of codes or identifying signs or credentials?

13. How long can we sustain a post-H suggestion-unaided-with reinforcement?

20. Can we, while a subject is under SI and H control, show them a map and have them point out specific items, locations, etc., on the map? Can we also have them make detailed drawings, sketches, plans? Could any of the above be done under field conditions and in a very short space of time?

[1] SI – there is no mention of what it stands for in document, although it appears to stand for Sleep Induction if you refer to #17. H stands for Hypnosis. Another CIA Document from 1951 says

“Our work and the work of others indicate that there is a strong possibility that total amnesia or an almost total amnesia will follow the use of our technique as a general rule.”

To use a child to investigate these possibilities I find so morally reprehensible, that I have a difficult time fathoming how anyone could even consider using children. They Did!!!! I am but one of the many children who were the CIA’s convenient experimental subjects. Because of our youth and the severe traumatization we were put through, these men felt we would never tell our stories; and if we did, they felt we would never be believed.

Slide 13

I would like to show you some pictures of some of the people employed under MKULTRA, who carried out experiments of sensory deprivation, mind control and the like. History will judge which are guilty of Abuse of Power. The hard copies will be available to look at after the presentations for anyone who is interested.

Unfortunately I don’t have any young pictures of Gottlieb, who was in his 30’s in 1952. Allen Dulles with the pipe, head of CIA and whom I believe to be Sidney’s cohort in crime. A declassified document from 1957 talks about the difficulty they have had in obtaining expert services and facilities to conduct their tests and experiments. It says,

“Some of the activities are considered to be professionally unethical and in some instances border on the illegal. These difficulties have not been entirely surmounted but good progress is being made.”

Slide 13 – 16 Perps pics

Experience has shown that qualified, competent individuals in the field of pharmacological, physiological, psychiatric and other biological sciences are most reluctant to enter into signed agreements of any sort which connect them with this activity since such a connection would jeopardize their professional reputations.

Dr. Wilder Penfield last picture seen and Dr. Ewen Cameron were both well respected Canadian Doctors. I believe I was to experience both of them and their expertise in mind control.

Slide 17

This is a Picture I drew of a Mounty. In 1992 before having any personal knowledge of MKULTRA, Dr. Ewen Cameron, or Wilder Penfield, I painted a picture of a Royal Canadian Mounted Police Officer driving a buggy. I had no idea at the time what it meant, just that it was extremely important. I often drew and painted scenes from my abuse without knowing their meanings till such time as my alters revealed the information. In an affidavit presented to the lawyers for the Canadian survivors of Dr. Ewen Cameron’s brainwashing experiments, Dr. Omond M. Solandt, Chairman of the Canadian Defense Research Board from 1947 through 1956, sheds light on my memories of the RCMP. He was prepared to testify that during the 1950’s the United States Central Intelligence Agency had a resident representative at the United States Embassy in Ottawa who was publicly introduced as such. The CIA representative was liaison with the RCMP. The RCMP made formal information exchanges with the CIA, and the CIA and Canada exchanged all research information of mutual interest working in Canada, including the CIA.

Slide 18

Upper Left is the Allen Memorial Institute of Psychiatry, McGill University in Montreal, CA, where Dr. Donald Ewen Cameron worked. The Rockefeller Foundation had funded it in 1943. Picture next to it is the stables that were converted to a behavioral laboratory and housed a box for sensory deprivation experiments by Leonard Rubenstein, Cameron’s assistant. This lab was directly behind The Allen M. Inst.

The Montreal Neurological Institute, lower right was also academically affiliated with McGill University and located on its campus. Penfield and Hebb both worked there. The Rockefeller Foundation funded it with $1,232,000 and it was opened in 1934 and Penfield was hired to run it. Braehead, lower left was donated to McGill university in 1944, and faculty lived in it as well as Purvis Hall which was connected by a passageway. Braehead is where I was kept while some of the experiments took place in Montreal.

Slide 19

Rockefeller Foundation worksheet Before I elaborate on my experiences with Dr. Cameron and Dr. Penfield, I would like to show some interesting connections between them and the rest of the players in these experiments.

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That it was Fort Detrick’s Special Operations Division that initiated the secret contracts with the New York State Psychiatric Institute is significant because the division was established with CIA assistance for the exclusive purposes of devising biological weapons that, according to CIA documents, could be targeted “at individuals for the purposes of affecting human behavior with the objectives ranging from very temporary minor disablement to more serious and longer incapacitation to death.” This statement according to H. P. Albarelli Jr. and John Kelly who have an upcoming book “A Terrible Mistake: The Murder of Frank Olson and the CIA’s Cold War Experiments”.

Slide 20

Edgewood Arsenal was Part of Fort Detrick’s Special Operations Division.

The “History of Edgewood Arsenal,” published in 1965 cites:

In 1954 the Medical Research Laboratory was staffed with an abundance of highly qualified personnel.  There were 32 college educated officers, 12 of which were medical doctors from some of the country’s best medical schools, 3 of the officers held PhD’s, and 1 was both a Ph.D. and an MD.  of the 130 enlisted scientific and professional personnel (ESPP) assigned, 128 held college degrees, 55 held Master of Science degrees, and 11 were Ph.Ds. The 117 civilian employees ranged in grade from GS-7 to GS-17 and included numerous Ph.D.s and MDs from such leading universities as: Harvard Medical College, University of Munich, University of Pennsylvania, Johns Hopkins University, Princeton University, Cambridge, Duke, University of Berlin, Columbia, Cornell, and Stanford.  In addition to its own select staff, the Medical Laboratories had continuous imput from the private sector of medical research in the form of contractual arrangements, chemical and medical advisory councils, industrial liaison, and published literature.

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Pictures and drawings:

I was to undergo sensory deprivation in a box after being given a shot of curare, before these procedures took place. I believe the Mountain drawing is of Mount Royal in Montreal. Montreal Neurological Institute on McGill campus is upper left and the drawing is self explanatory. The reason I show it is to show how a mind retains information even through extreme trauma.

A CIA document on The Study of Dissociated States, it says,

Slide 22 “Experiments involving altered personality function as a result of environmental manipulation (chiefly sensory isolation) have yielded promising leads in terms of suggestibility and the production of trance-like states. There is reason to believe that Environmental Manipulations can affect the tendencies for Dissociative phenomena.”

Slide 23- Whole Body Counter from Los Alamos National Laboratory, circa 1958, which is like the one in the previous drawing. My alters originally described this as sleeping beauty’s casket.

Slide 24 This is Stereotaxic surgery being performed. Prior to finding these pictures of actual machines I made this drawing. In one of the experiments I was forced to lie on a table with my head immobilized. While I was awake I believe Dr. Wilder Penfield inserted an electrode into the sleeve guides that were already imbedded in my head before I got to Canada. They were invented by John Lilly and used on animals while he worked for the National Institute of Health (NIH). I believe Dr. Penfield probed my brain and someone in the room recorded what was being said. Penfield said that my brain was like a tape recorder and he just needed to take me back in time. He did this by touching different spots of my brain. They kept recording the memories induced from images in my past, and later I believe Sidney Gottlieb of the CIA used them for future programming sessions.

Slide 25- Experiment that I believe was performed by D. Ewen Cameron with Sid Gottlieb and others.

Top Left picture is a Positron Emitter Detector, circa 1962. It is an early version of the PET scan now in use. Bottom left picture is a positron emitter detector 1965 from Brookhaven. These used Radioactive isotopes to attach to glucose and oxygen, which are the fuels for the brain. They are then tagged and collected by a computer. In my case the CIA was identifying different personas within specific areas of my brain while a programming session was in progress. As each alter was being programmed, detectable energy flashes were being picked up and a recording was made. This also assured the doctors that they indeed were working with different parts of my personality, separate and apart from the me that they would eventually reawaken. This part returned to “normal” living with no knowledge of any of the events that had taken place during the programming sessions. The PET scan produces images of how living brain cells work collectively to retrieve memories and form words–in short the physics of thinking. During the 80’s Stargate, a remote viewing project that was done at Ft. Meade, used binaural beat tones that changed the brain waves through earphones. Perhaps the technology they used was derived from these experiments done in the 60’s on people like me and others in this room. Lower right is a portable ect unit which many of us became intimately acquainted with.

Slide 26 Some survivors have drawn pictures similar to these machines. Upper Right is a whole body counter circa 1964. Lower Right is a Rotational scanner to detect the quantity and distribution of radiation in the body. Upper Left is a Mobile whole body counter. Lower left is a body counter from fifties.

Slide 27 This picture completely mystified me until I read a news article about an implant that amplifies brain signals, which are then transmitted to a laptop computer through an antenna-like electronic coil on the head. Researches at Emory University implanted a tiny implant, the size of the tip of a ballpoint pen into a patient’s brain, which allowed the patient to express his thoughts with words, through the use of a voice synthesizer.

Many of the experiments performed on me were done to heighten and use ESP, Remote Viewing and the energy of the mind. An April 1972 document says,

“It may be worth considering that psychokinesis occurs via an energy ‘exchange’ or communication between the experimenter and the object.” Then a P.S. is added explaining why it is so difficult to obtain information on this subject through FOIA requests. The P.S. says, “Would like to file with Plant Sensors File.”

My book contains many examples of this and supporting documentation. I have not spoken about experiments done in the Appalachian Mts or those done by Dr. Black. Time would not permit for my entire life history to be repeated here nor could your stomachs handle it. There is information on people involved in “The Shadow Government” and importation and usage of Nazi’s as well as documentation on RADIATION, BIOLOGICAL and Chemical experiments.

I’d like to end by putting up the last two slides

Slide 28

In a 1964 report on MKULTRA programs and participants, the use of children is made quite clear in response to the following,

“Have CIA personnel conducted experiments involving human subjects other than the experiment that involved R Frank Olsen an at least three other persons?

ORD (Office of Research and Development):

The one instance in which ORD personnel have been directly involved in conducting experiments with human subjects occurred in Orlando, Florida during December 1964. The subject allegedly had transdermal optical perception. The tests were observed by a contractor under a classified association contract, which had been funded through the (deleted) Fund. In addition to the contractor, the subject’s father was present during all testing. No drugs were used. With this one exception, all ORD sponsored research involving human subjects has been conducted by contractors.”

Slide 29

“Most people occasionally stumble over the truth, but pick themselves up and continue on as if nothing had ever happened.”

Winston Churchill

“All truth passes through three stages. First, it is ridiculed. Second it is violently opposed. Third it is accepted as being self-evident.”

Arthur Schopenhauer

Thank you all for your attention: Are there any questions?

Carol’s web site is at :

Reviews of : “A Nation Betrayed: Secret Cold War Experiments Performed On Our Children and Other Innocent People”

Rutz’s book walks us through her horrifying journey of experimentation and training by her CIA torturers beginning at the age of four as part of the government sanctioned Bluebird/Artichoke and MKULTRA Projects. Using electroshock, drugs, hypnosis, sensory deprivation, and insidious trauma, our government performs Mind Control experiments on her and other innocent children. The objective is creation of a Manchurian Candidate-a sleeper assassin-as well as instilling skills in ESP and remote viewing.

Dr. Pamela Monday who has personally worked with over 50 mind control survivors says, “I want you to know that your book is the best of any I have seen written by a survivor. It is scholarly, and expertly documented and footnoted. Your book will convince many who, up until now, are skeptics or downright unbelievers. You have done an outstanding job.”

A Nation Betrayed also shows how our own tax dollars paid doctors and hospitals to conduct Cold War research with chemical and biological warfare materials and radiation. Testimony by survivors of this abuse along with expert documentation leaves no doubts that a government’s fear of communism created the atmosphere of no holds barred .

Eleanor White, P.Eng., Technical Advisor, Citizens Against Human Rights Abuse (International) says, “Carol’s book, and I mean really just the cover, is so effective in engaging public attention that it is the publicity equivalent of “packin’ heat!! Besides the pubic, it should be equally effective in persuading friends and family that what you are going through is not illusion. Can’t recommend carrying a copy enough. By comparison with another top-notch source book on the MKULTRA atrocities, Search for the Manchurian Candidate by John Marks, you could say that Manchurian Candidate is a good image, while Carol’s book is a much sharper image of the MKULTRA atrocities. Carol’s research is at least as extensive as Marks’.”